sickly excited

[dominalove]

Hi I'm april. I started my journey in January had my first doc visit in February an then started the six month diet required by insurance company. After my egd, nut, exercise, and mental evaluation I decided I needed real therapy. So then I went into therapy to address my issues(mom's death, I left home at 15 the list goes on)I have been in therapy for 4 months it has really helped me prepare mentally for my new life. Anyway I thought I had 2 more months to go with this diet, but I got a call July 16 saying that blue cross no longer required the six month diet and my info would be submitted for surgery, I got approved that Friday. I got another call on Wednesday telling me that my surgery date is August 11 and to start my liquid diet on July 28(I immediately got sick and had to vomit,sorry for the grossness). Everything is going the way I want it too, but for some reason I haven't been able to sleep at all I want this surgery so bad and I need it why can't I just be happy?

[Deejaycee76]

Congrats on getting your surgery date. Lots of insurance horror stories on here as of late, so be happy your story isn't one of them!! Best of luck to ya

[Pamcake49]

Hi April,

What a ride you've been on! Good luck on your surgery, take care and keep in touch.

[KajunKween]

I think you are just reacting to the news. You've been preparing for months and thought it would be a couple more, and now this change has brought it all up to happen now. I think your mind is trying to adjust.

[Xanadu]

Best of luck to you! I think we all go through the reality check that this is very real! I have my surgery on Monday and honestly up until today, I have been nothing but excited....now I'm a tad nervous lol. I've had lots of surgeries so not sure what I'm nervous about lol but I am.....it's all going to be good! Celebrate, your day is coming!!!

[Ann2]

dominalove, I agree with KajunKween. We've been waiting so long for this to happen that when we realize we are REALLY FINALLY FOR REAL going to take this big step of changing our lives and our bodies in ways we've only contemplated in theory thus far, it gets real fast.

I'm in your shoes. I just found out yesterday I've been scheduled for mid-August. I went through about four hours of what you just described.

BTW, I also put myself into therapy a few months ago. I have lined up every resource I can muster to make sure that this OMG! step I'm taking to finally conquer this *)#&^% overweight problem I've had since I was seven years old is the last freaking effort I have to make.

(Don't mean to imply that this won't be a lifelong program I'll be on or that I don't understand it. But this is not "just another diet" in which I lose 40, 50, 60 pounds -- and then regain it all back. Not ever again.)

In any event, I think you're so smart for doing what you've been doing to get ready for it. My surgery date is a week after yours. We can be VSG buddies.

Ann

[BillyJ]

It is just nerves. You will do fine. Just focus on why you are doing this and follow the Dr's instructions. I was nervous too but I did it and I am so glad I did. I lost 18.5 lbs in 8 days. Keep reading the wonderful stories on this site and it will motivate you. Good luck, God Bless and please continue to post so we will know how you are.

[dominalove]

Thanks everyone for your kind words, I must admit I've always been a glass half empty kinda gal. I have talked nothing but surgery talk to my sister and boyfriend and they don't want to hear it any more thank God for this community. I know every thing will be fine, I am just so anxious.

[Ima Fox]

Hi April. I wish you complete success on your journey. I really respect the good things you've done in your own behalf. Most people have various levels of change adversity. We can usually tolerate change as long as we have enough time to be mentally prepared. Maybe you can ask your Healthcare providers to push your schedule back by a week or 2 if that would help you. I'm sure there are other options you could come up with to make you more comfortable & accepting of the pace of the process. Search your heart and do what's best for you. I'm sure you will. (((((((April)))))) Good luck.

[Ladeegee]

Hi April,

I went through the same thing when I got the call, and then again when I received my letter in the mail yesterday. My surgery is on August 8th, and I am a bundle of nerves. But I keep telling myself, "you've come this far, you're almost there, don't stop now." That new chapter in our lives is drawing closer and closer. Hugs to you!

[bikrchk]

That's awesome! Quite the roller coaster! And it's not stopping any time soon, so tighten your chin strap and try to enjoy the ride! As you begin to lose weigh rapidly, you may find yourself a little more on edge than usual. This is NORMAL. Hormones and toxins are stored up in our fat tissue and as we release it quickly, it can be kind of a flood of emotion for us. So embrace therapy and the changes you are about to go through. It feels amazing on the other side!

[Little Verbena]

Change is never easy. Some changes, like this one, take a lot of work. Now that the surgery is here, you will be facing some big changes and from this point on, it is not just talk and maybes... it is real. It sounds like to me that you are taking this very seriously. You are doing everything in your power to set yourself up to be successful. You are addressing issues that would maybe lead to emotional eating so that will not be a problem post op. I think you will be fine. This will not be easy but it won't be any harder than what you are already doing to change.

[ximmia]

Hi April,

It's totally understandable to feel this way. You have had your timetable pushed way up and humans in general don't like personal chaos. (Funny, some of us love to cause chaos though...), Once you have a day or two to reframe your timeline I think you will be okay. Remember that this is life altering surgery and it's perfectly natural to be nervous, and excited, and sick and all the other things. In fact, I would be more worried about you if you weren't feeling that way. Take care of you and keep us posted.

[Curlytop54]

Good luck on your surgery. Mine was the best thing I had done. I am guessing that you thought you had a few months left before surgery and then WHAM the insurance are saying you can have the surgery now and the excitement and nerves are hitting you. Keep in touch and let us know how you are making out.