Highest weight 277lb 5/2012, Surgery 256lb 4/2014, Lowest 207.2lb 1/2015 Now 220lb 91/28/15
Had sever heartburn so my gallbladder was removed 7/22/15, tried all kind of meds but didn't help me. Felt fine for a few weeks and now have the most sever heartburn ever, it wakes me up at night bc its all in my throat and makes me vomit. I did call the dr. and she said to continue to take aciphex 20mg and call her in a few days. Ok I also have a high liver count and my other dr, my gastrologist told me to take zantac on onset of heartburn. worried I have bld work done every two wks until she figure out was is going on.
Today I had a boost shake around nine and a banana around twelve and that killed me, the worse heartburn ever an I had to run to the bathroom to vomit.
There is a lot going on with me, my diabetes did go down to 9.4 from a 10.4 that's not a big deal to me.
I can eat anything and not feel full at all and I have been eating a lot of food and junk food, it was not hurting or heartburn to about two weeks ago and it started again, the heartburn had gone away for a while so I thought since they remove my gallbladder that all would had been fine.
so know im upset because I have gained 12lb and want to get back on track and I just don't have the energy or willpower to do anything I try walking but I get so tired, I have fibromyalgia and at time my body hurts so much that I just cant mover. I went to another support site but my nut said not to go in it bc I start flipping out thinking to much about everything I read in it and how diff there food list is, not like the list my nut has given me so she wants me to stay off it and just follow what she tells me but I need someone to talk to and read about other ppl that are doing great.
I wish now I had the bypass bc it helps lose weight faster then the sleeve but I guess there is nothing I can do about that now. I just feel so sad and empty all the time, cant talk to anyone bc my family just tells me to stop eating and my few friends didn't agree with the surgery so cant talk to them about it, I was seeing a therapist but stopped bc she left the hosp and also I felt I was not getting anywhere talking to her.
so I decided to come back to this site since it was the first one I came to when I had my surgery.
I get up every day and have a protein shake but my ten am snack time I eat whatever its in the house even though I have shakes I don't want them.
Im just a big mess and Im stuck, cant go forward,
I wish this was easier, last yr bfore the surgery I use to go to the gym every day six days a week while I was taking my weigh loss classes.
I just saw my nut and we talked for a long time and I left feeling I could back on track but today, the next day is like nope I cant, I just want to eat the whole house.
I feel I don't be full at all like I never had the surgery at all, I drink soda all day long and eat all kind of food, I have to cook for my son and my dad even though he is in a nursing home I go see him every other day so I have to cook for him too. oh I been reading and rereading all my info from the hosp classes. and I makes me feel like yes I can then of course I cant. feeling like nothing, like a no one, frailer with everything
ok, thank for letting me vent.
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