Today is my one week anniversary of getting the GS. Here is just a little update on how I've done since being home:
I can finally sleep on my sides, my right more than my left. However, because my stomach is still a bit poofy, I have to tuck some of my blankets underneath me to get some support without having my stomach and back supporting me all night. I have finally been able to get a full nights sleep the past 2 nights. I also just take my pain pill when I go to bed to ensure that I don't abruptly get woken up with stabs of pain. Along with this, my heart burn has still been going crazy and I have sucked down the awful liquid antacid that was given to me at the hospital. I have been trying to take good care of my stitches, but noticed a little discoloration. So I put hydrogen peroxide and let the bubbles take it away.
This past week has been such a challenge with the fluids. Everytime I drink, the acid flares up. I also made the mistake yesterday of gulping a mouthful of broth (won't do that again). I have found myself pretty weak and can only do a walk around my cup-de-sac before feeling extremely tired. During the week I wake up at 6:15 and by 7:00 at night I feel wiped out. I also developed a headache yesterday. However, I associate this with having hardly anything in me for almost 2 weeks (pre/post surgery diet). I have now started on my protein shake today. It's going down pretty good and I think I will start feeling better now that I'm getting more protein and calories in my system.
Now for the psychological part:
I have been pulling recipes that everyone on this forum has shared and websites that are shared. I can't thank all of you enough. I want to make sure I have my cookbook all set so that I'm not scrambling to figure out what to eat and then make mistakes. My son has been wonderful in helping me out, but every time he cooks, I want to rip him apart Yes, I know the boy needs to eat, but to smell the good food and know that I can't even have one bite of it is very upsetting. I was also getting a little anxiety thinking about my future meals.
"Will I only be able to eat a couple bites at each meal for the rest of my life or will I actually be able to eat the right size portion?" "Here are all these great healthy recipes, did I make a mistake and gave up on myself so soon?" "Damn, if only I can reattach and unattached my stomach that they took off." "No, no, no...be patient. It will get better."
It's hard not being able to eat anything and not having any energy. I'm very grateful for this website because I get to see so many people in different phases and know that it's going to be getting much better and I will gain energy and strength again.
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