Hi everyone,we leave tomorrow for Mexico,we are going a day earlier then they requested to make sure that we dont miss their driver, Rosy. I think its really hitting me now!!! I have butterflies in my stomach,and cant sleep!I have a 7 year old son and I keep worrying that I might die on the operating table!crazy I now my Dr.is Alvarez and I haven't heard anything bad about him.I am just plain SCARED! I had laparoscopic gallbladder surgery about 5 years ago, and what hurt the most was the gas,I guess its the fear of the unknown.ive been reading a lot of your stories and they have been encouraging! so I think its time for me to share my story.
I was "normal" up until I got married in my early twenties and realized that it was a BIG mistake! to add to the stress I went off birth control because he said it impossible for him to have children because of a problem with his testicul.well surprise! surprise! turned out to be yet another lie.Things went down hill from there,I ended up a single mom and broke,anything was better then living with his abuse!needles to say thats when I found out that I self medicate with food. I started to take anti-depressants and the weight piled on! at least I wasn't crying anymore,but I ate.I felt I had wasted my twenties,and i did. going to court fighting for custody for my son and child support that he felt he didn't have to pay!6 1/2 years later I won,really there isn't a winner in this,but it over for now. he was in and out of our sons life so that was the worst for me,seeing my child crying for me because he didn't really know his father and I by law had to make him go with him!well its better now my son is older and he knows that he will come home after the weekend is done! anyway that is what has brought me to this point. oh by the way i am remarried to a wonderful man who by the way married me FAT! he is a body builder! love is blind and not shallow! we have also known me since before my 1st marriage,he is very supportive of me and my son.Well there you have it in a nut shell,and tomorrow I will fly towards my new life(literally) i want to be around to see my boy grow to be a man,and if I continue this way my fear of dying will become a reality! Thank-you all SO much for your honesty and support.
Genny
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