What is wrong with me?

[AmyM]

I have found that I am obsessed with any and all things sleeved! I find myself watching youtube before and afters. I have watched so many videos of the surgery, that I could probably do it myself. I am on this forum eating up all the information that I can get, ALL THE TIME! Is this ok? Is this healthy? It is almost like I feel that it is consuming my entire thought process. I will be sleeved in 18 days. It cannot come soon enough. I hate not knowing what I will look like, so I try to compare myself to youtube posters and have yet to find my twin. Tell me I am not losing my mind. Tell me I am not alone. I am going to need an intervention before too long.

[bessie.marshall]

I did this for about 8mths before my surgery! I felt a tad crazy at times, but after surgery I was REALLY prepared. I found it comforted me and I absorbed all the knowledge I could get. Your perfectly NORMAL! Best wishes. BTW.....best decision I've ever made for myself.....I'm down 59lbs in total.....38 since surgery 8/5/13.

[sraebaer]

I did the same thing. (I found the videos so motivational!) I think it's great to go into this surgery with as much information as you can soak in. When the nurse was releasing me from the hospital, she said that the bariatric patients are the most educated patients she sees, they know what she is going to tell them before she says it.

[Slamer3]

You are not alone ! I did the same thing for many months before surgery! I called it being informed. Also I'm at this site reading and lurking several times a day, there is such a wealth of information and personal struggles! I'm 3 months out

[caroline2]

My surgery is 11!22. I'm doing the same thing! I can't make myself stop! I think is is helpful, but I also feel somewhat overloaded. Good luck with your surgery and recovery!

[Granna1965]

LOL. It is perfectly normal. Just look at this way................. you are studying! Nothing like being prepared. I did the same thing and I think it is the best thing to do. You can not have too much info when you are fixing to make a life changing step! I was obsessed with the same thing. Best of luck to you!

[bikrchk]

I did the same thing. I'm a prepare-er. No regrets though, my obsession got me ultra-educated and in time will hopefully make me a resource for others!

[Barbp]

You are not alone. I feel like that myself. I have watched so many videos about the surgery and ones from people who have already had the surgery. I am on here twice a day. Once in the morning before I go to work, then once I get home from work. I can be on here for hours. I think that we are so excited about getting the surgery that we just want to know everything we can about it.

[tinoch]

You can include me in your crazy research c lub.
Originally I was going to have the band but after all of the research and discussion with the surgeon, I opted for the sleeve. I felt like that was my excuse for spending hours online reading this forum, watching youtube, looking for deaths associated with bariatric surgery.

Good Luck!

[Kimpossible318]

Lol, if this is wrong and unhealthy, there are a whole lot of us on here that are in trouble. . It's called knowing what you are getting yourself into and being prepared. I, for one, think it's smart!!! It has helped me tremendously thus far. Keep up your cRaZy!!

[kenson]

I am also adding my name to this club! I have learned so much from this forum. I am on here several times a day, I've also been watching YouTube videos of people who have had the surgery. I think we all just like to know what other people have experienced, the good and the bad. Even though everyone's experience is different, its good to at least what you MAY be up against. I don't think there's anything wrong with you at all!

[aboutime4me]

Hi there, I see you're near Buffalo? I'm from Buffalo, born there and moved in 2000 to Las Vegas for my job. Wishing you all the very best with your surgery. You're just normal so don't think another thing about it. I was on this site all the time, probably 3-5 times a day prior to my surgery and post surgery for quite a while. Now, I haven't been on in a few weeks. I'm 17 months post op and loving my sleeve, loving my new thinner me...down 95 lbs and maintaining pretty easily especially as compared to before surgery when all I had to do was look at food and gain 5 lbs!
This is a whole new life but remember it's only a tool and you've got to work with it and change your relationship with food and come to terms with how you got to be heavier. It's a journey and process and doesn't happen over night.
Take care and be sure to follow the doctors orders after surgery and eat the way they want. Be patient with yourself because you can't possibly eat and drink the way they want and you can't get the protein you need, right after surgery. Again it is a process and depends upon how your body and new sleeve heal and the swelling in the stomach goes down.
All the very very best to you!

[erinja]

Not alone at all, Amy! I too am looking at similar body types/weights and outcome, even though I've also memorized what is so often iterated here - that everyone's outcome is different. I dream of what I can get to and like you, wish I had a crystal ball that could see me, a year from now.

welcome to the Sleeve funny farm

[Bluto]

Yep, been there, done that. It's a major decision and major "elective" surgery. You need to make sure you are making the right choice. No matter how much you prepare the anxiety the week before and week after is significant. Four months out I stand by the cliche "My only regret is not doing it sooner"

[Truebody]

Mate, I did the same thing and I think it is healthy, not crazy. You are absorbing as much info as you can - you're preparing as best you can. Informed about this life changing surgery keeps you less impacted by fear. You cannot be freaked out by something you have already explored and come to grips with. I remember that part of my journey well. Obsessed doesn't even come close to describing it.