Binge Eating Disorder

[hirnsandy]

Carolyn... looking good!

[hirnsandy]

Licilu,
You are right... none of us want to admit those things! We have lived with guilt and regret so long... it's hard to be honest even with those on sites like this. Thank you for sharing!
"this surgery has completely changed the way I think and feel about food and the act of eating. I no longer live to eat, I eat to live! Amazing." I am hoping to be able to say the same things soon!

Blessings!

[louisianagirl55]

Thanks for all the post I have my surgery on tub s and have seriously been wondering how I.was gonna handle the brain part!! I would eat over stuff then beat myself up later! But the overstuffed feeling seemed to help.whateverr was hugging me at the time!! Thanks for the hope I really want to die one day having a full life not a full stomach!!!

[gbrs]

You have my respect for your open and authentic post. As one with a history of closet binge eating disorder, I certainly recognized myself.
I wanted to say though, that though the sleeve has changed my life for the better, and has turned this around significantly, it is still very important to get some counciling re: these issues, because they will try to sneak back up on you. I go to a food addict recovery group weekly, and to a therapist that specializes in eating disorders twice a month. Otherwise, I believe I would "eat through the sleeve" as my Dr. put it. Best of luck. We are all pulling for you to win this battle once and for all.

[Licilu]

Thank you guys

[Big_SlaveLaker]

Alyse...its very commendable to be able to admit your eating disorder. I too have a binge eating disorder, but when I binge, its like a drug addict taking a fix.
Food is my one true love, and I am about to divorce it!
I pray that when that part of my gut is removed, the cravings and feeling to eat go with it.
I did not go for that one final binge, instead just a 3 piece chicken dinner. I need to lose some weight before I goto surgery on Sept 3.

Good luck in your weight loss.

[jerzeygirl]

You'll do so much better than you can ever imagine! It's a great tool, use it, keep up w/support groups either locally or here, and keep loving the way you look and feel. I didn't see this post earlier, but it pretty much describes my feelings re: eating, however; now it's all different. My life is free from the food addiction, and I can do the other things I couldn't because I was either too busy eating, thinking about food, or not feeling well enough to do the things I love. Life is good now, and I'm 62 years old! I admire, and am also jealous of the younger folks who are/can have the surgery, that's my only regret. If I had it earlier, my whole life might have been different. I love my life, but to think of the opportunities I missed because of my self-esteem from being to overweight; damn... I could have been the first woman president...lol.... Thanks to everyone for sharing their very personal thoughts, and for helping others who didn't have the courage to admit them until now.

Alyse...its very commendable to be able to admit your eating disorder. I too have a binge eating disorder, but when I binge, its like a drug addict taking a fix.
Food is my one true love, and I am about to divorce it!
I pray that when that part of my gut is removed, the cravings and feeling to eat go with it.
I did not go for that one final binge, instead just a 3 piece chicken dinner. I need to lose some weight before I goto surgery on Sept 3.

Good luck in your weight loss.

[xxtac66]

Licilu, I did not realize or admit that I was addicted to food until I was on my 2 week pre-op diet. It was so defeating to admit it but at least I had hope in my impending surgery. Elastic pants will soon be a thing of the past for me as I continue to lose weight! While I didn't ever order more than one meal in a restaurant, I did eat a whole bag of potato chips or a whole package of cookies or finish off a 1/2 gal of ice cream. Thank you for bringing our ugly pasts to light and the assurance that there is hope for healing and living again. My brain is changing and it is a daily task to stay on track but the disease of addiction is slowly fading away.

[Obreezes]

So can I ask a question? It seems that my binge eating became so much worse after my surgery. I have alot of trouble controlling itLooking for any tips you can give.

[ninaricci46]

Wow... I do relate.... soon to be on the losers bench....

[tmclenn]

Yup, binge eating has been a part of my life for 37 years. Full bags of potato chips, totally! Realized it is a slow form of suicide and I've decided I don't want to die from that. I want to be there to see my kids become adults, I want to experience love again. I'm curious how many of us binge eaters have an alcoholic parent(s)? My dad was and I realize I crave carbs the way he craved alcohol, when you break them down they are the same are they not? I just chose solid alcohol. A life time battle fro sure, and I also do not want to be a sleeve failure. Thanks for sharing.

[xxtac66]

Obreezes, binge eating may require some therapy. I know that sounds extreme, but I believe most of my problems with food were mental. I was so ready to get my head in the game with the VSG that I have not had too many issues. I have to monitor myself daily as an alchoholic would, but for me it is getting easier and my will-power is much stronger. Just a thought.

[JeffA]

The battle between my ears is the one I fear the most, honestly.

Also binge eat from time to time, and what I've found is that when the monster is coming to light, I force myself to know take a breath, look around me, and write down what factors are going on right at that moment (in the car, home alone, etc). Over time, I figured out the trigger, and now I try to do something else.

"As if it's that simple," I know, right? What I found from writing is that I ONLY binged when I was alone, or when my wife wasn't around (downstairs, etc.). So, now, when I get into that mindset, I breath, say to myself that I can beat this SOB, and go say hi to her or go where the kids or other people are, etc. If there's no one around, I've been just purposely not going into the kitchen.

It's a long hard slog.

[incredibleshrnkngshirly]

Alyse, thank you so much for saying what a lot of us couldn't! I just found this thread this morning. I too have an eating disorder. I used to cry as I was putting yet another bite of food in my mouth! I'm not good with putting pictures on here, I still have my Christmas photo up because I cant seem to get a photo to upload on my iPad. But I wish I could show you my before pic! I'm so proud of your healing process from food, I hope I get there...eat to live part...not the other way around...but this surgery literally saved my life! Thanks again for the video!