Transition to Fork Mash-able
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, 01-17-2016 at 02:33 PM (4210 Views)
Today I can start my fork maskable food stages. What is on the list? eggs, tuna, mashed legumes, etc. I woke up VERY excited about this possibility and have stocked my fridge with salmon, refried beans, lima beans, and eggs. I started with scrambled eggs (2) although one did break on the floor. After lightly scrambling the egg, not drinking 30 minutes before, and not during I eagerly sat down to chew (27 times each bite) for the first time in 3 weeks.
Well, that did not settle too well. After about 5 minutes of chest tightness it all came right back up.
1. This was sad and annoying because I do desperately want to eat "real" foods and I was following the outlines perfectly.
2. It was oddly a comfort because I feel like this liquid stage is keeping the weight loss guaranteed.
I've now tried some avocado. I was able to successfully eat 1/4 of one. And the feeling that has been described over and over again that you just feel full hit. My mind and mouth did not feel food but there was no way that tasty avocado that my mind, tongue, and throat wanted was going to go down anymore. You are full but not content or satiated. I hope the last parts come as I change my habits over time.
This week I have also forced myself to be back in the social world my friends are in. While that is a lot of drinking and bars (age 27) I have abstained of course and it has been fun but even seeing a clink of champagne glasses on TV makes me more than thirsty for the bubbly. This past weekend many of my friends from my home state went on a trip all together. My immediate reaction was "wow I wish I was invited!" and then a reminder what all would I do-no drinking games, no late night bar shots, no waffle house, no take-out the next morning. And while that doesn't sound perfect-it does sound comforting and what I am used to! Its going to be a transition. But one in the long run has to be made. I just can't use this surgery any type of excuse to not push myself in to new things and work on transitioning old habits new ways.
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