The surgery
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, 10-29-2014 at 11:01 PM (1112 Views)
Oh my....
we had to be up early to get to Flagstaff in time. It's an hour drive. On our way up, hubby and I held hands and i told him, "well,I'm going to be thinner even then when we met" I needed to lose 30 pounds when we met but he thought I was perfect then. During quite time, I would think about going home to see my family in February and being a lot thinner. We got there and my Dr was ahead of schedule, so we got started early. My Dr came in and patted my knee and ask if i was all ready and I said "yep....give me a nice tight little pouch" and help my thumb in the ups position.
I woke up throwing up...horribly and a lot, they gave me something for it that helped to a degree....this is always an issue with me . hubby and my middle son came in, they moved me to my room and i told them to please go home...it's an hour drive and all they could do id sit and watch me dry heave or sleep.
They keep coming in and taking my vitals and then it seemed as they were coming in a lot taking my vitals. i was feeling very very out there, and i told my Dr that I must of sprained my neck and back dry heaving because it was very painful to move at all. He said no...he didn't think that's what it was from. More people kept coming into my room and i would here someone say , she really doesn't look good, they kept taking my blood pressure over and over and I head someone say, "call her husband"....I felt confused and so light headed i didn't really care abut anything. I remember sighing something and some someone saying emergency room stat and stat blood matching now.
I wake up dazed, miserable.....so, i was bleeding internally and my blood pressure bottomed out, they had to give me blood. The blood was leaking around the muscles in my neck and back and i have to say as a woman who has given natural child birth, that's the worst pain I have ever felt. I was ICU for a couple of day and them moved to my own room. I was in for five days.....
Home typical..pain, movement hurt.I just wanted to sleep. I ended up back at the hospital for dehydration
so....here I am. It the 29th of October and i was sleeved on the 6th with emergency surgery on the 7th...and i have lost....are you ready TAAADAAA
FIVE frigging tiny little pounds, while everyone else sleeved on the same day have 20 to 35 pounds.
I feel defeated, depressed, confused a failure and like I put myself and my family though a lot for nothing