Today I cried-Mental issues
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, 06-17-2014 at 10:24 PM (1713 Views)
My surgery was 4-24-14 and I did a pre op "diet" for a month with just liquids the last 10 days before surgery.
I sold my house so I could pay for this surgery.
I traveled to Tijuana because thats all I could afford.
I have been a diet failure all my life. I was up and down in weight and the last two years I exploded. I hit 250...I tried every diet known to man and failed. I tried every pill and shot to lose and I failed. I worked out to lose and I failed.
My mind told me to plan for the worst with my sleeve and so I expected to lose 30-45 pounds and stop...I knew I would fail because I have such a great track record at failure.
In two days it will be 8 weeks since surgery and 12 weeks including pre op. I started my journey at 250 and this morning I am 184...I sat in the floor and cried...I am not a failure I AM A LOSER!
My Tiny Tummy is a tempermental grouch at times but we are learning to get along.
I look in the mirror and I honestly see no change. Everyone else does and some say I look sickly now (they have never seen normal me) I see that my clothes are much smaller but in the mirror its still fat cow me.
I guess I am just in shock. I heard how well it worked for everyone else (just like all the commercials for every diet said) and I expected the usual result.
I can say I am surprised and so very happy, I love my sleeve It proves there is hope if you follow orders and have a little faith.
54 pounds to my goal weight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!