Depressingness
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, 05-22-2014 at 02:32 PM (1660 Views)
Been stalled at 283 for Nearly 4 months now. And yes, there have been new NSV's since then, like I found a pair of boots that fits my calves! But Still, stalled. No change in eating btw. Beginning to think my natural inclination that this thing wouldn't work was correct. Yes I lost almost 100 lbs but now....
AND I just got my spine assessed finally and found out that it's way worse than I thought. Degenerating disks, twisted and bent spine, and deformities in 11 discs. Nothing they can do. After all the anxiety and worry about getting Sleeve so I could lose weight and make spinal surgery possible... there's probably nothing that can be done anyway. And spinal twist is exactly in the spot where it means I can't carry a child to term either. So I feel like right now all this surgery did was confirm that my life has no point. I'm still fat, and if things go the way I think they are headed, I'm just gonna start regaining the weight on way less food soon. And NOW I have PROOF That I'll never be a mother and will have to live in a wheelchair soon.