Un-Easiness :/
by
, 11-27-2013 at 05:02 PM (1265 Views)
I have had for the past 2 days a feeling of uneasiness and being unsure! Today marks 5 weeks and 2 days since I had my surgery and at my last check up last Monday I had only lost 2lbs from the previous check up which was 2 weeks prior to that one! Needless to say I felt discouraged at that appointment but I go back one week from today and am afraid that the scale will once again only say I have lost a 1-3lbs if I did not gain! I am not feeling like I am changing in anyway as I did weeks before and feel like I have come to a stand still already! I don't have a scale in my house to check and Its killing me because I want to know if what im doing is right or wrong! The past couple of days I haven't been able to have protein shakes because they are making me gag so I have in attempts to get the proper amount of protein been eating chicken and a veggie for each meal! My meals never consist of more then 140 calories and take me about 1 1/2 to eat but I still feel guilty when I am done eating because I know that as per doctors orders im supposed to be drinking to shakes a day! This journey started off rough and it just feels like its getting harder not easier or more second nature I should say! Today Iwoke up and thought maybe I shouldn't eat anything today and just drink drink drink water water water and maybe then the weight will start to come off but then I read several blogs and forums that advised against doing so and I am just so torn and lost! I have no one to call or talk to because I am the only one that I know that is going through this and you all are my only hope for some guidance or advice! I really don't know what to do to get rid of these thoughts and feelings except anxiously await next weeks dr.s appointment to either bring to reality my fears or to put them to rest! Has anyone else gone through this and what did you do to change that? Im to the point where I am about to go out and buy a scale just so I can either have some piece of mind or give me some kind of clarity so I can figure out what is wrong!! Hoping that everything is going as planned or should be..ugh the being unsure part is really killing me right now