Well the time has come for my surgery. I am beyond ready.

Ive been overweight my whole life, and I want to get this shiz handled. I am fortunate enough to not have any additional health problems, but unless something changes, its just over the horizon. I have a family history of obesity and diabetes, so I am a ticking time bomb.

Surprisingly I am not nervous. yet. I'm kind of an odd duck when it comes to worrying. I inherited my grandmother's knack for worrying and have found a way to make it an art form.

EGD? Worried like Crazy.
VSG? Not one bit.

The things that worry me are the silly things like a catheder and have a voodoo queen poking me with needles.

I'm more worried about the pain to follow, and I know there will be terrible pain. I'm worried about the hair loss... And I'm worried no one will show up for the funeral I'm planning for my boobs.. ha, just kidding.

Mostly, I'm worried about failing.

These worries, I can handle. They will take some care to control, but I got this.

Its funny, I think I really have a good grip on myself and this whole process. I have dieted a trillion and one times and this is the first time I have ever felt the need to take "Before" pictures. I dont know if my subconscious just assumed I would fail previously, but either way... I know I am going to rock it this time around.

My pre opp went well. I just had to do it for one week. I could have four protein shakes, jello, broth, popcicles, G2 and water. The first two days sucked and aside from being a total Biotch on the second day I handled it pretty well. Yesterday was the worst day. I couldnt get myself to want to drink or eat anything with out a gagging feeling. It was awful. But I forced it down, because I knew I needed it. I didnt really do broth... I liked chicken broth, but I assumed I would like beef broth...but when It came down to it, everytime I took a drink i felt like i was drinking the juice out of the bottom of a roast pan. weird, i know. Oh well. Its over!

Tomorrow is the day. I Imagine I will freak out 15 minutes before...but I hear thats when you get the drugs, so hopefully it wont be too bad haha.

I'm so ready for this!!