I hate my husband & how unsupportive & selfish he is.............so sad

[jessy81]

i am fed up with how i need 2 beg 4 whatever i need from him.............all i want is his support 4 this op! i've dieted all my damn life! i've gained the weight all back again due to failed IVF trials cuz of HIS infertility problem! i'm even paying in full for the op. out of my entire life savings! He doesn't wanna go 2 the surgeon's appointments with me, he doesn't wanna be there during my surgery, he keeps telling me how i'm gonna die if i get this op. done & how it's the "easy way out" & i should just "shut my mouth, diet & exercise", & how it's my fault that i have no control over food & he keeps staring at any beautiful thin woman anywhere we go & loudly comment on her "awesome rack" all the while i get depressed even more & now i'm trying 2 calculate how much this op. & the post op. follow up + vitamins + shakes r gonna cost me , i'm about 2 burst in tears! i'm about 2 sell my car while he has enough money 2 help me , but he won't even buy the vitamins or the shakes which cost FORTUNE in Egypt.............i'm so angry & i don't know what to do..............so sad

[jno86]

you need to get a divorce. thats crazy.

[jessy81]

i wish.............i swear 2 god i wish ..............it's just not that easy when ur a 30 yr old Muslim woman in Egypt with an emotionally abusive father who won't tolerate a divorced daughter.

Women r not allowed 2 live in condos alone here, out of the question.

I HATE THIS PLACE.

[jno86]

come to the us! ( i know easier said than done) but you gotta do whats best for you!

[jdavido]

Don't let him get you down, sweetie. I know it's hard ... because he sounds like a real ass - but you're better than him. When he comments on other womens racks - look at other men's packages and comment on how you wish his was bigger. That should get him where it hurts.

You do this for YOU ... then when you're ready ... get your ass out of there and come on over to the USA where women have equal rights - you deserve it. Life is too short to live it in misery. Save a little money, a few dollars here and there ... and use that to break free when the time comes, then you can have a new life. Think of this surgery as the first step down the road of your new life.

[Pixie]

After reading your blog I was sadden by it. He probably wants you to stay overweigh because if you lose he will be insecure. I'm so thankful for my husband and the support I recieve from him. Keep your head held high and save your money until you can do something about it. I will keep you in my thoughts.
Pixie

[jessy81]

i'm actually half Canadian.............can u believe it??? i just can't imagine leaving my whole life here & just "leave"...............but it's been such just a living hell being so fat & emotionally abused .................i wish my parents never left Canada ............i was born there & i spent 10 beautiful years there..........my brother & cousins still live there & they're ecstatic (single girls having the time of their lives)...........i knew getting married to him would only be trouble, but i thought that he'll appreciate how much i loved him & what i've given up 4 him ...............he didn't.......he blames me 4 being so fat ............i swear although i know in my heart of hearts that love him, i wish i never married him ......................i even had 2 leave my job cuz of the 5 unsuccessful IVF trials.........they couldn't tolerate the days off & the dr.s appointments + i had a boss from hell who used this infertility issue against me ..............

u know, i've seen supportive men around me & i've seen their wives............they're not even near perfect.....i wonder why this has happened 2 me?

i'm fat, ugly, very vulnerable & i cry much more than i laugh..................i'm only 30 & i feel like i'm 80...........we rarely ever get intimate & i got used 2 it & i don't want it anymore cuz of how ugly i feel........
i wanna be beautiful again ........at any cost

[chipy02]

We are sending you love and support. There are people on this site who care. Please keep you chin up. You are beautiful at any size. Just know that he is the one with issues and not you. UGgg he makes me sick...

[themouse1960]

Oh my gosh. Life is to short to be so unhappy Jesse81. You deserve so much better. Can you go back to Canada? Do you have somewhere you can go? You have GOT to do something for you. Nobody deserves to be emotionally or verbally abused by anyone. Please get some counseling-you don't deserve to be so unhappy!

[Kloudyday]

I am so sorry that you're going through such a hard time. Never let someone make you feel worthless. You're a wonderful person struggling to take control of your life and improve yourself. As has already been said, it sounds like it's time to get away! Maybe you should do that for yourself first... you might be surprised how much better you feel about yourself after getting rid of your rotten husband holding you back. Good luck to you! I really wish you all the best and hope your circumstances improve greatly!

[GA_Girl]

Oh my! Sooo sorry you're dealing with this! I've heard about how it is there so I can't offer any solutions but I will pray for you.

[karma11]

Canada would love to have u back..I'm sure your family in canada could help u out to get back..not easy to do.to make big changes but it seems ur on the right path! .and it sounds like the unsuccessful IVF are a blessing in disguise..would u want your children to grow up with that abuse from him?anyways keep getting support and know it can be better!

[crystal]

I'm so sorry you're going through this but please keep in mind that Love is not name calling and being disrespected. This really hjurts my heart and is making me cry for you. We love you

[jessy81]

i'm gonna get this op. done even if it's the last thing that i do ............then once i look human & confident again i'll try my very very best 2 get a decent job again with a decent career & just move the hell on ............since we don't have kids (&probably never will) i might actually leave him if i continue 2 b this miserable & u guyz r right , it's mostly about the insecurity issue ..........he just doesn't want a beautiful successful confident wife ..........he's rather have a blubber blob hang on 2 him unhappily...............too bad that's gonna change .............i don't care if i have 2 sell everything i own 2 reach my goal.........i can do this , i know i can, WITHOUT HIM...........i'm meeting my surgeon on tuesday & i just hope that i can sort the finances out without a lot of damage .............i pray 2 God that it won't be out of reach..........this is soooooo not an easy way out,........i hate that he said that!

[smoochie]

If you were born in Canada...you must be a Canadian citizen. That would make things alittle bit easier. Noone has to take that abused from anyone. Move back to Canada and have the surgery there. Use the money that you have saved and get the hell away from that man. Loving yourself is the most important thing for you now. Hope you find a solution....my heart goes out o you!
Keep your head help up high!