So it was about 2 weeks ago I went to an offical weigh in and lost the 20 lbs I had to lose before I could get an appt with the surgeon and set up a surg date. (We are required to lose 10% of our excess weight, but then we don't have to do the 2 wk liquid diet)
I was jumping up and down, hugged the bariatric coordinator... and then I left feeling all high, called my kids, mom, etc... and got this sudden feeling of nerves, like an "oh, Goddess, this is REAL" kind of thing.
I went out the next 4 days and ate pretty much everything I'd been denying myself (except for a chocolate bar, I managed to stop myself there). I had greasy, heavy stuff like I used to.
I noted two things immediately. They tasted really, really good, and I felt really really bad afterward physically after eating nearly fat free for 7 weeks to lose the 20 lbs.
I only gained back 2 lbs and now I'm down 25 total but I was wondering what the heck happened so I asked my terrific bariatric psych doc at our behavior modification class last night.
He said that it is normal, and it happens because when we meet a goal we have some trigger that says, Whew, that's over, let's celebrate! And for foodies, celebrating means food.
Also, it's normal to think we may never eat certain foods again and because they may have been comfort foods for us we are like kids giving up security blankets. Well, it's hard to snuggle up with a quarter pounder with cheese but I get the connection! I was concerned it meant I would not be able to be ok with my after surgery diet but he assured me it was a normal progression and they time the surgery a month after the weight loss goal so people can go through this emotional journey and be ready. Smart docs, I have. (hey when did Yoda sneak in here?)
Thought I'd pass along this experience for anyone else pre-surgery who goes through the same thing, because that's why we're here
Have a great day, folks!
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