Hello All,
It's been a while since I've posted here. Today marks 7 months in and I'm down 87lbs and only 40lbs from my target.
It hasn't been an easy road though. At the end of May I had a birthday and my wife in recognition of my working so hard got me an ice cream cake to celebrate. Well I enjoyed a piece that night and again the next night. Then a week later my wife had her birthday and I thought it would be nice to give her an ice cream cake. This led to a month where my previous steel will turned into aluminum foil. I found myself buying snacks and carbs throughout the month of June. This led me to actually gain a few pounds. Then I took a hard look at what I was doing and how far I had come.
The other thing in my head is that we are our own worst critics. I find myself looking at my reflection in the mirror and only seeing how much farther I have to go. Then I get angry at myself for letting me get this big in the first place, angry at myself for not working harder and for getting off track when I've lost the most weight I have ever lost in my life. Doh, the vicious cycle in my head.
It is easy to say things like look at how far you've come. How much better you feel and telling yourself "You can do it!" but when you are are down on yourself there is no other way to hear it but with a bitter tone.
But I decided I could let this beat me or I will buckle down make this work and get back to basics. No more snacks, no more carbs, get my daily exercise, get my daily water intake, get my daily protein intake. And, it is working.
I've lost the weight I gained and a few more pounds as well. I don't know if I will hit my target by the end of this year but it won't be because I gave up. I'll post some photos this weekend.
Take care and good luck to all of you out there that struggle and know that I believe in you even if you don't.
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