Hi all. Michael here. im contemplating sleeve surgery. im 29 i have high blood pressure that i am on medication for and about every 8-12 months i get hospitalized for celliltis and staff infection which they are saying is part of the over weight thing. when i was younger i was tall and lean with an athletic build. when i turned 18 i was a passenger in an accident where i broke my femur. they inserted a rod and screws into my leg and was bed ridden for about 10 months. my body changed and was never the same. i got super heavy and no matter what i ate or how much i gained and gained. when healing was done, i had to roll out of bed. i was then 6'5 and over 500 lbs. before that i was 6'5 and 210 lean and solid muscle. i was apalled and depressed and worked out and got down to my lowest weight which was 385. smaller, and settling into this new body and lifestyle. since healing the leg i have always been active. i am a performer and started dancing and doing musical theatre again. there are limitations but at least i can still do the things i love. then i was diagnosed with high blood pressure and all that jazz. he put me on bp meds and weight loss pills to curb my appetite. with the pills i am now down 25 pounds at my current weight of 360. im not seeing any real change in my body but friends and family say they do. i think theyre being kind. the doc wants me to get down to 230 or so. he has recommended sleeve and the more i read online the more nervous im getting. i would love to have the procedure and lose a ton of weight and be happy and healthy. but something in my head is saying its not going to work that way. im starting to get super scared. i want to lose the weight and hit the target set by my doctor but here are my worries..... 1 i really dont like the fact that i will have multiple inscisons on my body.... How many do they make? are they ugly bumped up scars? if i get thin again, is that going to be one more thing why i dont want to take my shirt off at the beach or pool? because i feel like the scars will be a constant reminder of the betrayl by my body and my failure to get it back under control. 2. will i get thin again with this surgery? will i be able to achieve a flat stomach? 3. rapid weight loss due to these surgeries usually entails the excess skin factor.... will that tighten up and go away? or do i have to have surgery again and add more hideous scars to my body to get rid of it? 4. once i start losing the weight and work out hard to achieve the body i want, with the sleeve will i be able to intake the calories needed to work out so hard? this is irreversable and permanent. does eating like a bird work for someone like me? i have tons of questions and fears. but i feel like im stuck in a catch 22. i need to lose the weight to save my life. but at what cost? sorry this turned into a rant but im pertrified even after writing this....
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