I haven't been on here in a while and, honestly, I'm kind of scared and ashamed of posting now. I had my surgery a little over a year and a half ago and lost 120pounds and never felt better. It was AMAZING and now, I'm scared shitless that I'm on my way to falling back into my old habits. You see, it's much easier to eat now than it was initially. I can eat ANYTHING in small amounts and can pretty much graze all day on very bad things. I'm finding myself drifting back into the addiction again and, like I said, I am terrified of the thought.
Fast food.
Sweets.
Mini-binges.
I'm doing it all right now.
I knew from the beginning that this wasn't a magical fix and in the last six months I've bounced up and down within a ten pound range. I haven't gone too far off the beaten path, but I know I have to do something severe or I'll be back where I started . . . even though there's a part of me that refuses to believe I could ever let that happen.
In short, I'm desperate for help and don't really know where to turn. I had the surgery and still have weight to lose, but am still addicted to food. I just want it to end and feel completely helpless against it.
Thanks,
Roman
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