What a year and a half its been.

[ACE]

By the way I count I will be coming into my 18th month since I began my new life sleeved, and as happy as I am that I am where I am I am a little disappointed in myself for not working a bit harder over the last few months. But I have been recommitting myself to me and I am focusing harder now and hopefully I will meet my original goal of 165 (3 pounds very annoying) and I plan to surpass that to a goal of 145 by my two year mark. I am happy that I don't have near the amount of excess skin I thought I would but I know that I slack off and old food demons try to cloud my mind which they have at times. I know I might be feeling a bit of the "stall blues" because I know I was loosing like last week but recognizing that it might be the blues helps me remember that I am just being impatient and when these moments hit I need to reexamine exactly how big my meal portions are and how many times I eat during the day. I have caught myself grazing lately and I am glad i had garbanzo beans prepared in my fridge because I was able to control myself with those rather than eating stuff my husband asked for for Superbowl like salt and vinegar chips. I usually don't allow ANYTHING in my house like chips or ice cream but those were the two things he asked for so I figured I can compromise since the only time we watch any football is if the Ravens play. While he munched on the things my brain begged me to have I munched on garbanzo beans and I felt really satisfied. But I have noticed I was eating too fast again and eating too much because of it so I have gone back to shakes twice a day and one small meal in the middle of the day so I can get my mind back on track with this and get rid of this last little bit.
This has been a huge emotional roller coaster but now that I am in the last little bit I can see (literally) how far I have come
I recently also realized that as i have lost the weight I have also lost the excess "baggage" that came with it. I no longer care about the old relationships that added 20 -50 lbs. The hurtful words that were said to me in High School that I carried and allowed to define me for so long are gone and so many other things that seemed to "happen to me " No longer have a hold on me which is absolutely wonderful. Now I have got to figure out what baggage this last 22 lbs. comes from and clear that as well. I think its Yoga time

[Its_Me]

You posts are always so motivating and inspirational, keep it up, you will get there.

[Anissa Christine]

For the first time I just read over your stats.

So in 1 year you lost 100 pounds...that seems reasonable. At the time did it seem reasonable to you? Do you think there is anything you could have changed to exceed that 100 pounds? I am only asking for insight because initially I gave myself a year to lose that 100...but I really want to do it in less than a year.

I too in the past weighed more (387). However, I do not display it in my ticker. Do you feel it has helped you to do so?

Just looking for some helpful hints into meeting and hopefully exceeding my goals. So anything you could provide would be greatly appreciated.

Thanks!

[ACE]

Anissa, yes 100 in a year and I think it was absolutely reasonable to me but I honestly never thought I would loose 100 when I decided to have surgery. I thought I would always be in the 200's because I really believed I was "big boned" lol and I thought 165 on the BMI charts was way off and couldnt possibly apply to me. But now I am much further than I ever thought I would be ever. Also you mentioned the ticker and yes it helps me a lot mentally because I look at my weight loss journey spanning my entire life until now so seeing exactly how far i have come from the biggest (and lowest point ) in my life. I hope your journey is a great one and you reach that 100 lb mark

[Santy]

very well done!

[marilynlw]

Those last few pounds are always the hardest. You have come so far that I have not doubt if you want you can do anything you want and reach whatever goal you want. It just takes hard work and determination. Which you have. Good Luck.

[flipflopgirl]

Congrats!!!! Keep up the good work!!!! You can do ANYTHING you set your mind to!!!! Goal weight here you come!!!!! Keep us posted and thanks for sharing, I was just sleeved Friday and I am so excited and inspired by your success!!!!

[aboutime4me]

I agree that your posts are always so inspirational. You've come such a long way and better still is that you're figuring yourself out and your relationship with food. That's where the real change comes in...the change that will last a lifetime. It doesn't do us any good to change habits in the short term because we're already experts at that. That's part of what go us to the surgery in the first place. The real change has to happen within our inner CORE...who we are and what makes us tick. Congrats to you. Keep on going and you'll reach your personal goal for yourself.