sorry,just cannot figure out a title for what I have been through.....

[Lea]

I can't believe it I haven't been on this forum since end of May. I was scheduled to have my surgery on june 4th and canceled. Due to the nature of my business (boutique) its my busiest time of the y3zr and just could not take that time off to recuperate,honestly..my doctor had to mention open instead of laperscoptic and I just couldn't risk being laid up for 6 weeks...or/more.
Most importantly.....I have been a caregiver to my father,he has been very sick for almost four years and 3 weeks 3 days ago he succumbed to his illness.I can't put into words how much I love him,how close we were,my building sits next door to their building so he would come over and visit me multiple times daily He was 71 and until he got sick,he was a powerhouse. We are very close so I am having a hard time....daily tears. I am still trying to wrap myself around the fact my amazing father is gone.... one of his wishes,concerns was me going for this surgery. He was so for it. So in a way,I am doing it for him too,I know how much he wanted me to be healthy. So I kept my appointment w/ my doctor yesterday and am waiting for the call next week with my date,will be early to mid january I am told. Just letting everyone know why I disappeared 6 months ago.....back on track now....

[JulieJ]

Oh, Lea, I am so sorry about the loss of your father! That is so very hard. Like you, I was with my father every day, we worked together. When he passed unexpectedly at age 69, I was devastated. I think about him every single day and my memories of him and the time we spent together give me comfort and keep him alive in my heart. I hope that time will ease your pain. It never goes away, and it never gets "better", but it does get "easier".
My advice to you would be not to rush in to any big new decisions. Now is not the time. But if this was something that you were going to do anyway, go for it! It will give you something positive to focus on, while improving your life and health.
God bless you and I will say a special prayer for you.
Good luck to you, dear!

[soccermom]

Lea, my condolences on the loss of your father. I know how difficult that is having lost my mother about 13 years ago. Time helps. Good luck on your surgery. I hope you have a banner year at your boutique!

[MsThang]

Sending you love and light- My father is 78, and as he stubbornly "slows down" we dread he evitable. I wish little girls' daddies could live healthy and happily forever...

[Lea]

Thank you both, my mother and I were primary caregivers but througn the month of october I asked people to help/more,including other family members,his long term nursing insurance kicked in 2 days before he passed and they are still giving my mother issues about peperwork for those 2 days! Yes,I realize this is a big thing but I started this journey exactly one year ago,went through everything ,all tests completed. Bqsically just going in for surgery in january as the last part ....looking forward and hoping my father is watching over me. I miss him.

[MsThang]

Sending you love and light-
My father is 78, and as he stubbornly "slows down" we dread the evitable. I wish that little girls' daddies could live healthy and happily forever...

[Texas Girl]

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. My father is still with me (and we are very close - he has been integral in my decision and support of my upcoming surgery), but I did lose my mom when she was only 48 (and I was 21), so I know how hard it is to lose a parent. And it doesn't matter if they're young or old, it's always hard.

I hope you have a fantastic year and think of him every moment as you recover from your surgery and work towards the new you!

[goestogym]

God bless you at this sad time.

[Mbenson5]

I am so sorry for your loss- how blessed you were to have such a wonderful father! Your desire to honor him in this way is a testament to how much you love him! May your journey be blessed and I am cheering for you and hope you will share the journey with us! Best wishes, Melissa

I can't believe it I haven't been on this forum since end of May. I was scheduled to have my surgery on june 4th and canceled. Due to the nature of my business (boutique) its my busiest time of the y3zr and just could not take that time off to recuperate,honestly..my doctor had to mention open instead of laperscoptic and I just couldn't risk being laid up for 6 weeks...or/more.
Most importantly.....I have been a caregiver to my father,he has been very sick for almost four years and 3 weeks 3 days ago he succumbed to his illness.I can't put into words how much I love him,how close we were,my building sits next door to their building so he would come over and visit me multiple times daily He was 71 and until he got sick,he was a powerhouse. We are very close so I am having a hard time....daily tears. I am still trying to wrap myself around the fact my amazing father is gone.... one of his wishes,concerns was me going for this surgery. He was so for it. So in a way,I am doing it for him too,I know how much he wanted me to be healthy. So I kept my appointment w/ my doctor yesterday and am waiting for the call next week with my date,will be early to mid january I am told. Just letting everyone know why I disappeared 6 months ago.....back on track now....

[AngelNP]

Welcome back! I'm not sure if your father has passed or chronically ill "succumed to his illness" (meaning that he's not the strapping man he once was). I'm sorry you are struggling right now. You are a good daughter and glad you are thinking of taking care of yourself to get healthy. Prayers and blessings sent your way!

[marilynlw]

Best wishes on your journey. I know you father will always be with you.

[Enfury8me]

Lea, Sending you an Angel to watch over you. I to lost my father on the 21st of November last year (Just 3 days before Thanksgiving) It was a very difficult time for me and to this day I still think of my dad who I loved very much. God Bless you girl.

[aboutime4me]

Lea, I have tears in my own eyes as I'm reading and typing this reply. My dad is 90 and a half and just broke both his hips in a fall early in November. He underwent surgery and is on the mend now, but I know no matter how long or short we have a loved parent, it's never long enough. That being said, please know that in my very heart and soul I know your dad is especially close to you now at Christmas and will be with you all the way through surgery. It's a firm belief of mine that our loved ones can help us more from the other side of this life. Please take comfort in that. He is not suffering any longer and wants you to be your very best self, to take care of you as you for so long took loving care of him.

This is YOUR time to shine and to have others do for you. Wishing you all the best, sending lots of hugs to you and as the tears fall, both tears of joy and sadness when you think of him...know they are healing and cleansing. Have a joyous Christmas and know especially next Christmas will see a whole different person when you look in the mirror. Your dad will be beaming in heaven for you!

[Jnell]

So sorry for ur loss Honey....hope I can be of support to you. God Bless you

[Lea]

I came back to this blog to say thank you to each and everyone of you who posted condolences to me. I did it..I am sleeved almost 3 weeks and my dad is with me every step of the way. I miss him terribly but hold hope he's is watching me...
I miss my wonderful father! So blessed to have him in my life. Thanks again fantastic people x