Such a freak

[amato93]

Like i have said before I had the sleeve on 02-28-2011. my doctor has had one death since he has done it. (older patient with a blood clot). My biggest fear in life is death(yes I know it can't stop it, but....) so I totally freak myself out everytime I have the littlest pain (note...don't go on web md and check systoms, only makes it worst) and I go online (big mistake) and freak myself out to where I am in tears and I am assuming I am going to die. I need to know if anyone has any ways to help relax. My doctor is great, he has come in and lets me know what I am feeling (every pain has been real and I have gotten medicine or advise on how to make it go away, but...). I just think I freak out because of the blood clot issue, but my husband who is an angel, will wake up when ever I need him and sit with me and tell me to relax.. Just wondering if anyone else is a big as a freak as I am, or any advice would be great.

[Skhuff]

Sounds like some severe anxiety, I have taken celexa for the past couple years to cope my anxiety. Mine is not over dying but, I understand about how it always keeps you in fight mode. The only way I have found to cope is medication. I have heard yoga helps as well. See your doctor maybe a therapist could help? Best of luck and peace to you!

[Ericam]

I think I would talk to your doctor about something for anxiety. It might help you not over think things, and take the edge off. ((I take Paxil for it)). Good luck to you! Embrace the "tool" your doctor has given you to be healthy!

[razn4]

I totally understand!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It sounds like we are alot alike! How did you ever make to the actual surgery? Did you have these fears before or have they developed after your sleeve? I really hope you find what helps!

[daisymax22]

Not a freak at all (((((hugs))))) I have to agree with the "over thinking" comment. There are things that we can't control and things we can. Live to the fullest and love to the best of your ability. I am with ya on the silly death part, woke up many times thinking crazy thoughts, crying. Your not alone in how you feel.

[accordingtome]

Don't worry, it does sound like anxiety. Maybe a trip to the doctore will help. ( p.s. you know the internet is a trigger so don't go there. If you see a post where someone has titled it complications, do not open!

I hope you feel better.

[amato93]

thanks I was very nervous before surgery, like I said i wanted to cancel the day of. but I did not. I seem to be more nervous with every little pain,, though I am handling it slowly. I am going to talk to my doctor about taking something. any questions let me know....

Thank you all. i though maybe I had lost my mind...

[tls]

Remember you got through yesterday, you're getting through today, tomorrow will be even better!!!
Keep focusing on the good!! Just think what you have gotten yourself through. You should be proud of yourself!!

[amato93]

Thank you Tonya, i like that.