Pity Party
by
, 10-29-2014 at 08:14 PM (1162 Views)
I am having my own pity party. I have been approved for surgery on November 18th.You would think that I would be happy. I have waited a long time for this approval and it has finally come. I can't stop thinking of "Why Me?" Why can't I lose weight on my own? Why can't I just be happy with who I am? Do I really want to do something so permanent? Why am I addicted to food and especially sugar? Will I succeed at this? Will I fail? How long will I not feel good? Will I be depressed about not being able to eat? Will this make me live longer? Will I die on the operating table and my kids will be left without a mother? Should I really do this? WHY ME? WHY ME? Why can't I just be normal!