Things Crumbling Under My Weight - Countdown to Surgery
by
, 01-08-2013 at 02:57 AM (1338 Views)
Now I know that everyone talks about clothes when they look for inspiration for wanting to loose weight, or being around for their loved ones, and I am looking forward to those for sure, but you know what I AM looking forward to?...Not breaking anymore things because of my weight. That simple. Tonight I broke the little mini-stepper I had just purchased less than a week ago, I've been really putting it to use since I got it and tonight one of the steps came off and wont stay on anymore, yet ANOTHER thing I have broken since I have been this weight. I have never told this to another soul, so this is the time to come clean, since I have reached this weight I have broken: a chair, my daughter's foldable step stool, the box-spring of our bed on my side of the bed, and tonight even a little exercise machine. And of course each time I tried to blame it on something or someone else, actually my husband is usually quick to come up with those excuses in my defense.....*sigh*, but in truth I can see it in his eyes, the look of hidden disappointing, he knows I am the reason everything keeps crumbling under my feet. So after this latest I would have gone to bed crying tonight, but I going to sleep honest with myself, and looking forward to the day I don't have to confess to such embarrassing things, because tonight I am looking forward to my surgery that is now only 8 weeks away. :]