Hey all, I’m new but have found this forum to calm so many fears/answer questions already that I thought why not ask for a little help!! So here goes my story... (I tried to keep it short!)
I’m 33 yo, with a BMI 33 (have been up to 37) and I have surgery set for next week! Scary and exciting all at the same time!! II found out a little less than 2 years ago that I am diabetic. I’ve always had it in good control, but after over 2 years of trying to get pregnant we went to a specialist who doesn’t want to proceed with anything until my A1C is in the non-diabetic range and my weight is down 30+ lbs.. Needless to say I came home bawling... (that was about 6 months ago)
it was recommended I look into the sleeve. So I did my research, saw the doctor and he said let’s do it and that he really thought it could help and maybe even resolve my diabetes!! I’ve struggled since I can remember with trying to loose weight and have tried every crazy diet/dietician recommended without any significant success. Then while trying to get pregnant I was put on insulin and packed on more weight! I always remember feeling like the bigger girl in school despite competitive sports and dieting constantly. So the plan of surgery as a tool to a better future is so exciting!
So here’s my dilemma... I told my mom....and she freaked out on me, flat out hung up the phone out of fear!!!
She had a lap band with a lot of complications, my dads had surgery complication recently and now she’s making me terrified (but I know she didn’t mean to! She really is an amazing, wonderful momma she’s just scared her baby is going to be hurt). However, She said “I’m too skinny to remove a perfectly good organ”, I’m cutting my body permanently when I “only have 60 lbs to loose” and that “what about in 30 years when your stomach has a severe ulcer or worse because you cut out your stomach”.... So now I’m freaking out .... I’ve cried almost every day because I’m honestly had these thoughts myself while researching/talking with the dietician/family, so hearing it from her was even harder.
I explained to her I’m doing this because my potential pros outweigh the possible cons to me and complications are usually really low!! (My biggest being worsening of acid reflex but I’d take that over diabetes!) I want to get rid of my diabetes, move forward with starting a family, stop dieting without success and finally because when I look in the mirror, the person I see is not who I see in my mind. But after her words, I’m doubting myself like crazy and wondering will this make enough of a difference To be worth it....
I guess what I’m saying is, I’m having this surgery but I need some words of encouragement? Similar medical conditions with success stories To help we stay positive!? Any long term success stories??
I know I need to do this for myself but of course those fears still creep in......
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