Hi Everyone.
So I used to be on this board practically all day, every day. I got sleeved on 11/13/2013. It used to be the best day of my life. Now it's the anniversary of the biggest failure. I lost 118lbs. I was a rockstar (thanks for that Tinman and Ann2). I looked and felt amazing. Then life happened. I had some major martial problems, hurt my shoulder in the gym, and then broke my ankle in 3 places. After the injuries I was afraid to get back in the gym (which I had done every day, and 3 days week with a personal trainer). Then, to cope with the marital problems I hit the bottle. Or shall I say bottles. I was drinking 2 of the big bottles of moscato a day. I felt like weight loss surgery ruined my life and my marriage so I think I subconsciously put it back on to be safe again. We pulled through the problems and are stronger than ever but I still felt like WLS totally ruined my life. I started putting weight back on and couldn't figure out why. I was still eating well and following all the rules. But it kept coming and coming. I hit 160 and had the worst panic attack of my life. I started taking diet pills and trying atkins and working out every day but it still kept coming. Finally my mom smacked some sense in to me by telling me that just one regular sized bottle of wine has over 1000 calories. I was having the equivalent of 4. So I stopped, cold turkey. I had to face my problems and I did but it was hard. 3 years after I stopped and the weight is still coming on to this day. I honestly don't know why because I had stopped the drinking. No idea but now I'm at a regain of at least 60lbs. I say at least because I haven't weighed since last January. The scale would just put me in an emotional tail spin and I couldn't handle it. I went by how my clothes fit. No matter how hard I tried I could not lose any weight so I decided to have a revision to bypass. My doctor also wanted to look at my sleeve to see if anything was wrong. Well, turns out I have a significant hietal hernia and the top of my sleeve is stretched. Don't know how the hell that happened since I've literally only over eaten about a handful of times, never drink and eat at the same time, and don't eat slider foods (until recently). So his method of fixing it is the bypass. I'm terrified of it because it's just so invasive but I have to do something. I worked too damn hard to be this big again.
My surgery date is 3/11 and I'm so scared and excited at the same time. I think it will be so much better this time because I know what I'm getting in to. I just want to be the me I was at 130 again. I felt amazing and looked amazing. My self confidence was through the roof. And the sex - oh my GOD. It was SO much better. That's a motivator in and of itself!! My husband assures me that the issues we had won't ever happen again and I believe him. So here we go again.
I'm posting on this board because once a sleever, always a sleever. I always got so much support and love from my board peeps and I'm excited to start talking to you all again, plus some new ones! Since I'm technically a veteran I'm always here to answer questions or offer feedback on anything you all need. I've got a lot of knowledge and like I said, I was super successful at one point in time. I rocked my sleeve and I plan on rocking my little pouch too.
So here we go again. If anyone knows anything about how a sleeve to bypass revision goes please tell me because I'm terrified!
Talk to you all soon!!
Jess
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