I know the main reasons to have the sleeve, better health, look much better, feel much better, etc. I have lost 50 pounds, have 15 to 20 pounds to goal. I really wonder why I had it done. I guess I feel that I've done this to be healthy so I can take care of everyone else, that's what it seems. I really can't put into words what I'm trying to say, so please bear with me and hopefully you will understand and maybe can offer some advice. I know other people have just as many and more problems than I do, but this is my problem and my thoughts. My reason is this: I am retired, I go no where, husband wants to go no where. We live on a farm that we are tied down to feeding cattle, mowing and baling hay, etc. These things have to be done in the right season, but even out of season we can't be gone very long at at time because cattle gets out of the fences or gates, fences break, mamas are having babies and sometimes have problems with them, I could go on and on. I have two elderly parents I am the only one able to help; my only sibling died four years ago. They are still able to get around and go most places by themselves, but I have to make doctor appointments and sometimes take them to their appointments, check their insurance problems, order their meds, pick up the meds, put meds in the little pill boxes, and take care of countless numbers of other things that they no longer understand. My husband is in stage 4 kidney disease and probably will be on dialysis within the next year. All I see in my life is bleakness, sadness and being only a care giver with nothing to look forward to. I really don't mind doing these things to help my family, that's my duty and I love my family. I know also, that this could be much worse. I suppose I'm thinking if I don't travel, why did I even have this done. No one sees me, except family. Anyway, that's kind of my story. I just wonder, why. I wish I could explain this better, but I can't. Thanks for reading, and thanks for any suggestions. I'm sorry if I depressed anyone. Barb
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