Hi guys! It has been a long time since I have checked in. I got so busy with life and work - that I have been completely out of touch. You know how that goes. It has been 9 months since I had surgery and i have lost 105 pounds so far. It has been an amazing ride so far and its not over yet.
Mentally, accepting that my body is smaller now has been more challenging than I realized. Its all in my head I know - I have lost 105 pounds so of course I look smaller. However, when I look in the mirror I still see all those same problem areas I have always seen. Even though I KNOW they are smaller - when I just look in the mirror, I feel like I look the same. It is not until I see old pictures of myself that I begin to see what progress I have made. And crazier still - I barely recognize the girl in the photos. I feel like I have always looked exactly like I do now. I don't even remember being 340+ pounds. No complaints here, just some weird thoughts I have had - I figured the only other people who will understand/relate - are those who have had similar situations- my fellow sleevers.
Its funny- I have lost so much weight and am so happy with my progress - and yet I still feel like I have so far to go. I am still heavier than alot of people in this thread were when they first got the surgery! The weight no longer just melts off - its work for every pound. The diet seems to stagnate with stalls way more often than before, but I am used to that. Its like i can predict when the stalls will start and stop. I am down to 8-10 pounds of loss per month and it usually happens all at once. Then a stall of 3 weeks. I live my life by the NSVs now. I am 100% out of the plus sizes. I am in a baggy 14 and a l/xl. I have worn plus sizes for 15 years and it is surreal to be able to walk into any store and buy something. Its actually overwhelming - the choices I have now. Its fantastic.
Lastly - loose skin. I am already battling it and I know it is only going to get worse as the weight continues to drop. My stomach, thighs, and upper arms are so flabby and soft and I am not sure what to do. I can feel the hard muscle underneath of my arms and legs, but the skin is there, blocking it out from being visible. Has anyone had loose skin removed? Thoughts? The surgery, recovery, and cost scare me - so I am interested in hearing the experience of others. It was never on my radar when I had surgery because my shape was never...flabby, so I never expected to have this much skin. I will lose another 50-80 pounds (HOPEFULLY) and I am sure this issue will only get worse.
Thanks for reading my novel! I am happy to be back!
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