Ann2 ... You are my new Hero !!.... the BRILLIANT part of your reply is SO ME !!... I stepped away from the forum and writing replies because I’m exactly what you just wrote .. I know my weaknesses, I know my limits, I KNOW ME .. Yet everyday I Struggle and EVERYDAY I SAY .. I stumbled but I didn’t fall but tomorrow I refuse to stumble !!.... But EVERYDAY I find a positive but it seems I always slip up on a negative. There’s no certain time for me .. it’s been as early as soon as I get up or right before bed.... I have gotten back on track, I’m exercising like never before. I getting my cardio, my protein, my water .. but everyday I’ll nibble at or drink something and get so freaking mad at myself... lately my stomach is reacting to things I eat.. since I decided come Hell or High Water I’m doing this the only thing I can ingest is protein shakes and scottage cheese.. a lot of the other stuff I could tolerate like tuna and beef jerky isn’t my friend anymore. I slid down the mountain not a slope. I found if I had a mixed drink I wouldn’t eat. So after work I’d down a couple ounces of liquor and I was good to go. I decided that wasn’t fair to me or anyone around me .. I was being sneaky, and then nibbling on whatever I decided ...
I have proven my way ain’t getting it so I’m on day 6 of ... PROTEIN.. maybe a veggie ..and water only .. no diet green tea .. diet lemonade ..and for damn sure no more vodka.. tequila or rum... I didn’t have a drink of choice. I just decided I’d have a drink. I’m done ... and I got 40 lbs to go and I’ll reevaluate again then. I never been one to drink a lot (frequently) but I also never enjoyed the feeling of the BUZZ either .. it wasn’t me getting drunk it was a quick buzz and chance to bypass dinner ..My wife was catching on .. something was up.. I’d hide /throw away food saying I’d ate. I had some issues forming and decided enough was enough. So along with everything I did early on I’ve came back here to read and maybe reply to some threads... I’ll take the thrashing I’m sure I’m In for from some here ... but you know a couple folks kicked me in my ass early on and it was OK ... LOL
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