I’m sure it’s stress. It can’t be anything but stress (eating). I have been losing a little a long but for the past week or so I’ll weigh and be super excited, only to weigh the next time and think (what the hell ?).. it’s not a lot either way but I’m so close to a milestone I want it’s consuming me. I’m 297-298 a day or two only to be 302-303 the next couple days .. I’m not sure why it’s up and down other than my water intake. I just struggle thinking my water has that big an impact. I do good on the weekends I’m down both Saturday and Sunday mainly I think because I play (pickle ball , yes it’s a real game .. lol.. goggle it ). I’m 52 in decent shape and I constantly get beat up on by older I mean late 70s to 80s year old folks who are Senior game athletes .. lol..
I start creeping up Tuesday thru Friday ??.. I want to be under 300 lbs consistently it’s becoming an obsession.. my family says it’s because I’m snacking ?.. I have to have a handful of popcorn or peanuts something salty at night .. I think it’s 100 percent mental , I’m not hungry I just have an unreal craving for SOMETHING around 9 pm. It’s like a tottie ... instead of a nightcap I have something salty.. last night was the last night !!... I’m going to see if that was the holdup.
I did drink a Michelob Ultra this past weekend so I’ve satisfied my desire for a beer .. it was okay but not what I had mentally built it up to be... so I’ve got that craving behind me. It’s like here lately I’m trying a bite of something just because ?.. I still have a major restriction I can’t understand those who say they don’t.. if I eat to fast my stomach let’s me know immediately I messed up. It’s almost a self correcting problem it’s no fun. But once again it’s when I’m in a hurry or stressed when it happens.. I’m eating on the run .. I eat something in my office at my computer but have learned it’s still a bite and wait a few minutes before bite #2 or I pay for it..
I’ve rambled enough !!... I read here daily , but when I get to wanting to release my thoughts or frustrations I seem to start a thread... LOL...I think part of it is my birthday which is coming up and the younguns I work with are calling me poppaw.. and the thoughts of a wedding in Florida on a July 5th that’s cost me $6000.00 so far and it’s for a rehearsal dinner and other functions. A new Job ??.. A 2 week class at a community college that was “HELL”... it seems the late 20s early 30 yo kids are working on me mentally at work and then I get blistered physically by those who should be in ASSISTED LIVING !!... them silver hair ladies and ole men that made Viagra popular have no respect for a guy looking for a friendly game of competition.
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