12 days to surgery. I am more and more nervous each day as it gets closer.
I get to start my liver shrinking pre-op diet on Sunday. My 24 yr wedding anniversary is on Monday lol. I guess we'll celebrate it on Saturday with one last whatever I want to eat meal.
I went to see my ortho this week about my back pain ( degenerative disc disease and herniated discs). Before I got to see the Dr. I was talking to the nurse and I told her what I was about to do in a couple of weeks and I was really praying that losing weight will help with my back issues. This nurse who is just as overweight as I am, but probably late 20s early 30s said, "Oh honey don't do that to yourself. My best friend did that two months ago. Her hair is falling out, she can't go out and drink with me. She's no fun anymore. I want my friend back. Believe me I want to be skinny too, but that's just not the way to do it girlfriend."
I wanted to go into a rant about I'm not doing this to be skinny.. I'm doing it because I'm not getting any younger and this weight is hell on my joints and back and that I would very much like to get back to living instead of just surviving and what a selfish "friend" she is. I didn't. I just smiled.
One more reason why I've told only a select few.
Nervous, Scared as heck, and excited all at once.
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