I've been impatient, according to the doctor that's a problem I need to be more aware of about myself.
I like to go wide open, I'm very task oriented, need a plan, don't like not knowing.
Yesterday during my psychological exam the doctor ask me questions that really made me think. I learned a lot about myself, I never dreamed I was going to actually enjoy this session.
Working in Law Enforcement I had preconceived ideas about sitting on a couch with a stranger questioning me. I wasnt sure what to expect. I'd been to (EAP) before because I had to go, but this I was choosing to do voluntarily.
Me and my wife go to the appointment, we meet the doctor, and her and my wife have this conversation about me. I was shocked to here the POSITIVE things my wife had to say. We all talked for about 15 minutes and she told my wife to leave ( go shopping) just take an hour or so just to herself. (I now know how a baby feels being left at daycare the first couple days.)
The doctor smiles at me and we start talking, very general information, but every once in a while she interjects a question I answer with a question. About 10 minutes into our talk, she stops, smiles, and says I'm trying to get a few answers, this isn't court (Relax). I said "Yeah relax?" I wanted to say "Look Lady, I'm as uncomfortable as hell, ask me what you need to know, and get this over with". But I smiled and said "I'm fine".
We continue and she says well let's talk about this surgery. She tells me she's had the gastric sleeve and lost over 100+ lbs. She ask me specific questions and tells me I will do GREAT. I'm all smiles and ready to leave. She then tells me what she sees, who she feels like she's talking to, and I swallow hard.
This woman had me pegged . I didn't know what to say or how to respond. She talked to me maybe 30 minutes and had got to know me and how I felt inside.
I then relaxed and started talking, said things I never dreamed I'd talk about. Scared to death, would be putting it mildly. I couldn't believe I just opened up to this total stranger.
She assured me I was normal, had seen and been a part of a lot of traumatic events, but she enjoyed talking to me. She said it would be 2 weeks before I got a report. But she seen no reason I wasn't a candidate for this surgery.
SCAREY PART.. When we went to leave she hugged my wife and I swear I heard her say "Darling, I'll be praying for you."
LOL....
She did ask me to PROMISE to come back and see her in a year. I said "OK, I will".
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