Good afternoon, my new friends. I joined this site not too long ago and put it on hold as I went deep with my new decision to do the sleeve surgery. I first went in to meet my surgeon this pas June, thinking I would be done by August. Hahahah! I learned my insurance covered it if I did the 6-month pre-work and appts with my doctor. Now I have had 4 of them and 2 are left. Appt 5 is next Friday. I am on the home stretch. I had my psych eval, the nutritionist appt, my general practitioner gave her green light and her note. Now I find out next Friday what the next steps are and when we may start to schedule. My guess is that I have some more testing ahead of me. Am told will have some more tests to do, which is cool. I don't have to do the sleep test. One less test, yay!
I started to test out the shakes I will be drinking - just to see which ones are okay'ish. They all taste like liquid protein and health to me so..
I hope I get this done in early December because I turn 48 in January and it would be awesome to have had this done as a gift for myself. I'm 225 at moment and will probably lose during the two week liquid thang that's required before the procedure. Next summer, I want to be around 140 pounds. If I am? Great. If I am still on my way? Great. No matter what, I will be healthier, leaner and a lot less meaner (to myself.)
I don't want to disappear. I want to appear again.
Anyone else in same boat in NYC area? Or wherever really. I'd love to compare notes...
My most painful experience in being heavy is that I lost my way after a horrible divorce and used that as my big reason to put it off. I didn't think about the fact that I have yo-yo'd for years, which is why I need to do this. I can lose a lot of weight and I can run a marathon (as I had ten years ago) but I want to never yo-yo again. I want to be free. So the most painful realization came to me during this six month wait and I am grateful I have had this time to reflect and learn about who I am and why I got here. It wasn't my divorce. It was my being so out of love with myself that I lived on the edge and took scary chances on my health by not paying attention.
I also learned not to make the same awful choices in a boyfriend. The men who have dumped me were really not so fantastic but because I was heavy (am) and settled on what I thought I could get, the quality was dismal. I have learned in these past six months to say no to bad dates or experiences because in my gut, I know they were bad choices.
Anyway, I feel less lonely than I have in a long, long time. I feel as if the gift of this time has given me the gift of time forever as I live a longer life.
Thanks for reading. I will write more now that I am feeling fully invested in all of this good stuff.
xoxxo
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