Day 5 and Counting

[jessiejess]

Okay. So here's my accountability post for the day. To keep me honest and on track I plan to do this every day for a little while so I hope you all don't get sick of me. Lol.
The beginning of recommitting to a healthy lifestyle (the first 3 weeks specifically) is so hard but I made it through day 4 of my plan yesterday. I had no alcohol in spite of my craving for just one cocktail to unwind when I got home from work. Nope, I didn't do it. I asked myself "Does that one drink align with my goals? Is it worth the way I will feel afterward? Is it beneficial to me in any way at all?". The answer to those questions was a resounding no. So, craving gone.

I stayed under my carb allotment for the day and only ate about 800 calories. What's funny is I felt like I was eating all day and had what I wanted when I wanted it. I ate 6 times but I had small meals and small snacks like a jello cup or a cheese stick. I can feel that I'm on the downhill slope of the carb detox because I wasn't craving carbs last night. I was craving jello. I wanted something sweet and wasn't even tempted to go for an unhealthy carb. I knew what was in my best interest and did it. Last week I would have eaten a skinny cow ice cream sandwich - or two. Nope. Once again, that doesn't align with my goals right now.
I didn't work out yesterday but I am not going to beat myself up about it because I just didn't have the energy. I was definitely in carb detox in so far as having very low energy. Plus, you're not supposed to workout every single day so yesterday is considered one of my days off for the week. I was more alert than usual but just didn't have the energy to workout. For the first time in I can't remember how long, I was alert and awake after work and hung out talking with my husband all night instead of on the couch napping off and on until bed time and then moving to the bedroom to sleep for the rest of the night. I didn't realize I did that until he told me last night how much he's missed me and what a huge difference he can already see in me.
I told myself last night that I would wake up today at 5am and workout on the elliptical for as long as I could. While I was telling myself this, my inner voice was saying "Yeah, right. How many times have you said this? Sure. You'll sleep right through it". Well, when Alexa told me it was 5 and time to get up, I told her to snooze once. When she told me again, I told my husband I didn't want to get up but knew I needed to and he told me I'd feel so good if I got up and to just do it for myself. I really needed that push. So, I made the decision to focus on me for an hour before I had to get ready for work. I got my ass out of bed and on the elliptical for 32 whole minutes. At 5:15am that's a lot of minutes. I worked up a nice sweat, got my heart rate pumping, and felt great doing it. Afterward, I had this wonderful sense of accomplishment. I still do. I've said so many times that I was going to do that and today I actually did.
Recommitting is getting easier with every day that passes. I'm feeling proud of myself for the first time in years and I plan to keep this momentum going. The longer I stick with it, the longer I WILL stick with it. This is about forming new habits and that takes a few weeks.

So, now I'm in day 5 and I'm staying focused. I've already made a huge accomplishment for the day. I'm not craving carbs. I have energy. I feel motivated. I feel like I CAN DO THIS. I did it before and I WILL do it again. And when I start to doubt myself, I'm going to come back to this board and read these posts to remind me of how good I feel when I believe in myself and stay on track with my goals.

I WILL have a great day today. I hope everyone else does too!

[Dutchie]

Wow, this is so powerful!
This shows real strength.
I admire you.
This kind of commitment is what it takes.
You will succeed!`
Thanks for the update and your honesty.

[Stacey03]

I'm not sick of you jessie! Keep posting! You will totally be successful, you've done it before and you know exactly what to do! Keep going, and keep checking in! You will probably keep feeling even better and better because of the no carbs anyway. Its clearly having an effect on your tiredness. Could you get a personal trainer again, as you used to enjoy that ?

[KiwiGal]

"I'm feeling proud of myself for the first time in years"
Yay...and you should be proud. It's never easy changing habits but you are right on to it!

[Christie13]

Great post!! Those damn carb cravings are no joke. Way to go. You got this!! I start my day with a workout because I know that for me it is easy to find an excuse at the end of the day not to do it. So I make my morning workout a priority.