BCBS has officially approved my procedure. Given that I have been 42 - 45 BMI with 3 co-morbidities for 15+ years we knew it would get approved, but now it's official. In addition, I've tried and failed 3 medically supervised weight-loss programs and numerous "self-inflicted" diets, only to lose 25lbs and then regain 30lbs. I realized that sheer will power alone cannot get me to the level of health I need to be at. It's not that my will power is low as I've accomplished a lot in other areas. For example, I come from an impoverished and troubled single parent family and was the youngest of 6 children. However, I was the first person in my family tree before me to complete high school. Today, I have 3 graduate degrees that I earned in night school while working full-time and raising a family. I'm done beating myself up for "lack of will power" and ready to take the actions that will move me forward. Life is too short.
Most of my family is obese. It seems that we were all thin up until we reached our 30s, then the weight would start piling on. I know my main issue is emotional eating in response to stress and mild depression, and secondarily, a thin wife that lives to go to restaurants every weekend and eat fast food throughout the week. I am fully aware that my new sleeve will not resolve these challenges, but it will provide a catalyst and temporary "bumper rails" while getting the additional therapy for the emotional eating disorder. Also, my wife has a new appreciation for the seriousness of the matter and is ready to cooperate.
I am excited about all the positive changes that I know will come as a result of this procedure and life change. My only challenge now is that I am in-between jobs and interviewing. If I do land a good job in the next week or two I will need to push the procedure back 3 months. I'm getting up there in age and good job opportunities are getting scarcer. I'm hoping that if a new job opportunity presents itself, it does so ASAP. I would have to give my surgeon at least 3 weeks’ notice to reschedule.
Thanks for listening folks, and as always, thanks for being here!
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