Let me just start by saying my husband supports me in my journey 110% and loves me more than anything. He knows I needed this surgery to get healthy and feel better both physically and mentally. With that being said he loves bigger women. I was 200 pounds when we got married and gained 60 pounds in the 10 years that followed.
I have a small frame, I'm only 5 foot. The smallest I have ever been was when I was 16 and weighed 110 pounds. Other than that brief period of time I've always struggled with my weight. I'm not looking to be that small again but I don't know where my body is going to settle at.
So now talking to him he says that I don't need to be any smaller. If I lose any more he thinks I will look sickly and not someone he would be attracked to. I did tell him it is out of my hands at this point. My body will settle where it will.
I know it will be fine and he will get use to the new me but it will take time. I guess I'm just venting and sharing my fears. It is a huge change not only for me but him as well. All part of the process I guess. Thanks for listening.
P.S. No will not change the healthy path on on just to please him. I refuse to be that unhealthy again. So no worries on me sabotaging my wonderful new tool.
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