It's been 3 years today!

**Katrina** · 11-04-2017 04:37 PM

Today is my 3 year surgiversary! Time sure does fly. I'm doing really well. I couldn't say that at a year, but I'm thrilled to be able to say it now.

I am not your textbook case. I don't give advice (except never let your doctor ignore you if you think something is wrong and take your vitamins.) I don't follow rules or do anything the right way, but somehow it is working for me. I've been very fortunate, so far, that I've been able to develop a love for candy, chips, and cookies that I didn't possess prior to surgery, and still be able to be successful. The past few months have lead to a bit of a gain, but when I need to lose, I am able to kick it in gear and make it happen. I hope to be able to continue to do that. I'm quite headstrong. I do still drink a protein shake every single morning without fail. After that, it's fair game. I eat anything and everything. Unfortunately, my tastes lean towards the stuff that's not so great for you. I had better eating habits prior to surgery. Go figure. I don't get it, but it's worked for three years so far, so...

In January of 2014 I weighed 138 pounds. I quickly piled on the weight like I was double dog dared to. By August of that year I was up to 200. I am fat phobic. I lost my shit, and wanted a drastic and hopefully permanent solution. In October I looked into WLS. Within days I got the cash together, and booked my surgery. I was 213 lbs on November 4th when I had my surgery in Louisiana 5 hours from home. It went well. I went home in 3 days. I lost weight well, hit goal in 6 months. Had some complications. Spent a a week in the hospital 3 separate times, once in ICU with sepsis. Once i hit that one year mark, things worked themselves out. I haven't really been sick since. I did lose too much weight. I was concerned for a little while. That worked itself out too. On April 1st of this year I weighed in at 102. On a 5'4" body, that's too small. That is also the day I quit smoking and the day i started receiving steroid injections in my neck. I've been gaining weight since. It's freaked me out a bit seeing the scale go up so much, but I've found my happy spot around the 115 mark now. I used to think and say I didn't want to be skinny. I lied. I had never been below 120 as an adult, so I didn't know what it felt like. I know now that I like it. My body feels good. It doesn't look great, but it feels good.

Having surgery has made me so much more conscious of my weight than I was before, and I was really fretful of it before. I obsess over it now. I weigh at least every morning, but sometimes every time I go pee. It can get out of control crazy. Sometimes I get pretty sad about how much I let it control me, but overall I am much happier with this body than that other one.

Everyone will have their own story. This one is mine. I'm pretty sure I'd do it all over again.

Before
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One Year
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Two Years
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Today
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Today
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