Well, here I am. Back again. Shady's back. Tell a friend. Lol. I wish I could say SLIM Shady but that's not how things worked out for me. I was a rock star success story on this board losing 118lbs and maintaining for 2 years. Well, my personal life went to shit and so did my healthy lifestyle. I've regained a significant amount of weight over the last year and it wasn't due to food or over eating. It is due to alcohol and a sedentary lifestyle. I still eat small amounts but that doesn't matter if you drink a bottle of wine a day. The big ones. I felt like my weight loss ruined my life so, to cope, I started having a glass here and there to relax. Then I got laid off and drank all day every day. The ironic thing is I didn't get drunk. I just really like wine. Caveat - one bottle of wine can be as many as 2000 calories. Result? 55lb weight gain, shame, and feeling like a loser. Well, today is the first day of the rest of my life and I am setting a goal. No wine this weekend. Then no wine for a week. Then two and so on and so forth. I'm having water. Once I get hydrated again, I am going to get fitness gradually incorporated back into my life. Now, I've set these goals all before but I was doing it while feeling like a failure for throwing away everything I had achieved. Well, this time it's different. That switch in me flipped. You all know the switch. It's the one when you know you're ready for the right reasons. I don't feel like a failure now. I don't feel like I blew it. I don't have the goal of being a size 4 again. The past is over and I am not beating myself up for it. Now I'm actually looking forward to something new. I want to be healthy again. I don't care what size I get into again. I have a goal weight in mind but I am going to focus on what I am doing right now instead of what I did then or what I will do tomorrow. I am in control of me right now. And right now I'm in a good mind set and I feel strong. I can kick these bad habits for ME. So, one day at a time. I'm going to listen to my body and what feels healthy. So I'm off on my NEW journey. Here we go!!
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