Hey y'all! I have posted in a while but I am always around. I had my bio-metric screening and everything looks great. I am almost at the 3 year mark an all the blood-work was great, my blood pressure great, my BMI is 22, my waist is 28 inch. I know what you are thinking, "what tha heck does she have to be mad about"? Well, here is the clincher, I have gained 8 pounds, or 5 pounds if you consider that I teeter between 140-143. I can't even be happy for all the good due to that one thing. Actually the nurse was happy with the weight, but not me. I weighed in at 148!! I was mortified and almost cried. The only reason I didn't was because I was going to work afterward and didn't want to mess up my makeup (can you tell I am a girly girl).
OMG! I cannot believe I have gained that much. Now some would say, I am being too hard on myself , that 5 or 8 pounds is not that big of a deal. Well, it is to me. If I let 5 pounds slip by , then I will let 8 slip, then 10, and so on. I cannot ,NO , I will not gain back the weight that I've lost. I refuse to do it. I think what got me was I still have a lot of restriction , even after 3 years. So, I do not eat a lot due to the restriction and I sure as heck am not going to make myself eat more when I am full just to "eat more". It will make me literally sick if I do that. So I am thinking, if I don't eat enough how could I possibly gain weight? It must be what I have been eating,or rather not eating.
I stopped getting my protein in due to the fact that I can hardly stomach meats. The only meat I can digest is beef ground really fine. Some chicken, but it is a hit or miss. Tuna is ok, but can't eat it dry and I can hardly stand mayo anymore.
I was so mad and perplexed at how this could happen. Well, I know how it happened, I stopped doing what I was taught in the beginning. It's on me and not anything else.
I stopped with the protein, and started eating the foods that were easier for me to digest. Instead of finding different ways to get in the protein, I started eating a cookie at lunch instead of maybe lightly breaded chicken strips (hey it's protein) because a cookie was easier for me to handle.
As I reflect over the small, yet substantial weight gain (to me), I know I have to get back to the basics if I want to now lose the weight I have gained and then continue to maintain. I have gone back through post that have inspired me from some of the vets in this group like ANN2 and Tinman and they are full of great advice and a little scolding (we all need a kick in the ass at times).
I know I can do this ! I am going to figure out the protein thing, whether it is drinking it (as my doc says "if you can't eat it, drink it") or just eating the same things and learning how to spice them up. No matter how, I am going to win this battle.
I appreciate y'all letting me ramble and vent. And as always , I appreciate all input even if it is "tough love".
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