I am doing great with the weight loss as of today 181 pounds down, I have notice in the last 2 weeks it has been more of a mental struggle for me since I don't have the food to stuff down the hurt, anger and frustration I once used as a coping mechanism. I have to feel everything and it's makes me feel like I am on the urge of a breakdown.
In the last 2 weeks I have started morning the death of my parents, my dad's been gone 10 years, and my mom 1 1/2 years. The extreme anger I feel at the living situation I find myself in, and mad at people who purposely bring BS and drama into my life. I even walked out on Easter Sunday service because my Pastors wife always does everything the last minute, and I do the music for service, if she don't do her part I am left hanging and have to wing it. She had nothing ready when service was about to start like she promised. I got up and I walked away because I felt the urge to smack her for putting me in the position for the 100th time. I walked 1 1/2 miles to Starbucks in high heels that day just to cool down and get away from my church.
My poor husband is a great guy and he just wants to be helpful but I don't know what to do but just share it with him, in some ways I am ashamed of the way I have been acting and in some ways I think it's about damn time I stop eating my anger and get mad and stop letting people take advantage of me or a situation.
Anyone else feel like this during their journey or am I just loosing my mind ?
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