Hi everyone,
I had a Sleeve in May 2014 and life was great. I had never been so happy.
I was 25 when I had the surgery. I weighed in at 34 stone 4 lbs at my heaviest which was the day before I started the pre op milk diet. Within 12 months of surgery I hit 21 stone 4 lbs - I don't know how old I was when I last weighed that and I felt great.
I was exercising well and even completed a 65 mile bike ride for charity.
I started to gain a bit of weight towards late 2015 but I didn't let it concern me as I felt so good.
I went on holiday to America in January 2016 and when I went I weighed around 24 stone, but I was incredibly fit and the weight seemed stable.
Since my return from America I have started gaining weight. As of 3rd January 2017 I weighed 28 stone 6 lbs. I have since knuckled back down and so far I have lost 11 lbs of that and I am back into a good gym routine and eating clean food again.
My real issue is me.
In the past 12 months my confidence levels have dropped like a stone. My family had a Halloween party and I made excuses to avoid that. Then they had a New Year party at the family home and I found every excuse to stay upstairs which I did until everyone had gone home.
My life consist of going to work, to the gym, then home and shut away in my bedroom. I thought for a long time that I was happy about this, but now I am starting to realise that this is wrong, however my confidence is so low I don't know how to fix it.
I am arguing with my family almost daily.
I am 28 now... I thought I was meant to have my own life and be happy, but I feel like everything I have done to get to where I am has been a waste of time and perhaps I should have carried on eating the way I was and accepted the consequences of extremely early mortality.
Mt surgeon has referred me to phycology and I am waiting for the appointment, but I always seem to be able to put on a brave face and tell them everything is ok, I feel like maybe the only way I can convey my problems is in writing.
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