After dieting off and on (and when I say 'off' and 'on' I mean OFF and ON!) since I was 13, and having lost and gained 50, 60, 70 pounds at least half a dozen times, I decided to make the big step and get the lap band surgery in January 2013. I had considered the sleeve but felt it was too invasive and I thought the lap band was the better choice....Oh silly me. It was an issue for me from the start. I couldn't swallow anything! And it did nothing to curb my appetite. But I was determined to make it work, so for over a year I starved and I threw up...A lot. I lost 70 pounds and felt much better. But then I got tired of being hungry all the time and I started making poor choices again. Sound familiar to anyone? This has been me for most of my life. Either on the wagon...Or so far off the wagon it's kicking dust up in my face! So I gained back all the weight I had lost. Back to 280 pounds and sore and uncomfortable, and most importantly, not living my life the way I wanted to..AGAIN!
So in early 2016 I decided to have the band removed, and this past Monday I had the bariatric sleeve surgery. I had been through the prep work before...2 weeks of diabetic Boost (which I can't take because my stomach is super sensitive to something in those drinks and they ALL make me vomit), so I took Adkins bars instead. Needless to say, you get pretty damn sick of anything that you eat for 4 meals a day, 2 weeks straight and it was no different with this. They are so friggin' sweet. But it is done now and like I kept saying to myself "many others have done this before me so suck it up and deal". I lost 15 pounds pre-surgery and even losing that amount made it easier to walk up stairs.
I admit I was way more nervous for this surgery than the previous band placement and removal (and even my 2 previous C-sections!) but the surgeon was very competent and made me feel better. The surgery went well and I woke up with very little pain. 1st night was as expected as they wake you up every couple of hours to check vitals and check my incisions. Not much sleep and I was a nauseous as could be. Couldn't even swallow a sip of water without dry heaving. 2nd day was much of the same. Couldn't keep anything down but slept much better. They wouldn't release me from the hospital until I could keep liquids down and I was still on the IV...Day 3 was much better as I could take liquids (VERY SLOWLY!!) and the surgeon agreed to release me from the hospital. I am lucky that I have a fairly high tolerence for pain and since the surgery have not taken any pain meds at all. Between having to inject myself with the blood thinner needle daily in the stomach (kind of freaked me out that did!) and the chewable multiple vitamins, and the Tecta to control stomach acid, and my regular high blood pressure and diabetes medication, I feel like a human pharmacy!
So it's now 4 days in. I actually have had more pain today than any day since the surgery. This made me nervous, but from reading previous posts I understand that this is normal. I have not done a whole lot of moving around but I'm thrilled to be home and I'm looking at all my options for protein shakes and trying to make all liquid snacks interesting. If anyone has recipes to share for these they would be appreciated!
All I can say is that for years I heard people comment about how obese people just needed more 'self control' and to a degree that might be accurate for some. But in general, I wish they could understand the lengths we are willing to go to be a healthier, thinner and better us. My newly adopted moto is 'My new best self is in my hands, not my mouth!!' And the process continues...
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