Hi Everyone - I'm 4 years post-op, and I've GAINED! I just posted this on someone else's thread, but thought I might should start my own thread and see if anyone else is lurking here that has back-slid as badly as I have! Maybe we can encourage each other..
I held steady for the first 2 years, pretty easily (within 5 lbs). I was so proud of that! But, then in April 2014 - (my exact 2 years post op month), my Ex-husband/Son's father died at age 40, and I can remember that as being about the time I started gaining.. Then, in May 2015, my Father died. Both were sad and hard, but I don't *think*? that my gaining was emotional eating, but I don't know. I do know that having my EX die so young - (self-imposed/alcoholic liver damage/G.I. hemorrhage caused him to have an unsurviveable stroke)- made me even more aware that we don't have to be 'old' to die..
I can eat a lot more than I used to. And, I'm hungrier - a lot, probably because I don't eat right. I know I eat too many carbs, and fall into the 'what is convenient and easy to grab' to take to work to eat for breakfast and lunch..Dinner isn't much better. I have a lot of excuses. *sigh* My annual labs were great, except my Thyroid level was considered 'high', and I noticed that they have been steadily rising ever since Surgery.. ??? I don't know if that affects my tiredness/hunger, etc., but am insisting on having it re-tested in August. You never know!
I still do not drink any carbonation, as I was instructed to never have again. That's the one thing I can brag about!
I skipped my yearly appointment with my Surgeon's office in April because I know they will make me feel bad for gaining so much. Last year, I had gained and the dietician made this big GASP and said, "OMIGOSH, I knew you had emailed and said you'd gained, but I didn't know it was THIS much!" ... She wanted me back in 6 months and to have held at the very least the SAME weight-wise... I cancelled the appointment, because I'd gained.. and I have gained more, now, but I am going to go in next week.. may as well face the music and shame myself. Thing is, they aren't going to tell me anything I don't already know. My regular doctor told me to ask them if I need to try diet pills to get me back on track!! What??? Wow. I don't think that's the answer. I KNOW what I "need" to do, but once we are food addicts, I think we are always addicts.
I have gained about 80 lbs! There. I said it. It SUCKS! I'm mortified. I'm embarrassed. I hate what I look like again. I have one pair of pants that I wash and wear every single day! (I almost typed 'LOL', but it's not laughable. It's sad.) I had lost -148 lbs in one year (33 pre-op), and now I'm up 80.
Last time I was at the surgeon's I had gained 40.. so Ms. Dietician is going to $h!t a brick! And, if she does that big dramatic 'OMIGOSH' / GASP I'm going to tell her that no one needs that big dramatic response. There.
Woe is me. I suck.
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