So today marks two years for me
Wow has life changed. I am 100000% happy I did this.
From 311 to (as of today 167) That's huge! I still dream of loosing the last 10. The lowest I got was 161. I know my love and unhealthy relationship with food is my downfall to that goal. I am 5 ft 7. I wear size 8. bottom and a 10 or 12 top. How did I loose that weight and my boobs got bigger????
Bad sides: I lost all my stunning shoes as my feet went down 1.5 sizes. My hair became so thin I cried a few times. It's now rebounding and doesn't upset me like it did.
To me loosing the weight was so much easier than maintaining it is. I never "snacked" if it wasn't protein or veggie I didn't touch it. Sweets and breads were not in my life. But once I hit the 170 mark )which was my original goal) I let bad foods back in my life. I wish I never had. I float up and down between 165 and gasp 170. When I hit 170 I get tough again to get down. 170 is my danger mark. I WILL not go above that ever again!!!!!!!!!!!
People (hubby and friends) so I do not need to loose another 10). Maybe I just need to tone. I want to weight 15(?). Just start with 15 and any other number works.
I do weigh every day. I know I shouldn't. But it keeps my eating in check.
I work out 7 days a week. 3 days I excersize 2 times as I will also do a class at night. I enjoy the gym (shocking to me) and feel lethargic if I have to skip it due to work commitments. Some days I'm very hungry and eat more and some days food just teases me and I eat it because I obviously have some food issues. Head and belly hunger can be hard to tell apart!
I start every day with a premier protein shake. I like them and 30 grams of protein always helps me stay full and get my protein in. On rare days where I venture off that path I never seem to have a good eating day.
What I have learned is that my metabolism sucks! I ate so so good all day but damn couldn't resist that last night pizza hubby had. And today up a damn lb. I always say. Normal people can eat that and not gain.
I do typically allow Sunday as my cheat day as long as I have the cushion of gaining a couple lbs. right or wrong it's how I balance my life.
Truth be told I still see a fat girl..I see flab in places and don't believe when people call me skinny. I shop for clothes way too much partly because I can and it feels amazing to have all those choices. Thankfully I'm referred to as a sale whisperer. Queen of the bargain.
I know I will always have food issues,,,,I didn't get that heavy not having those. Now it's about balance. Knowing a bad day will have be be followed by strict days to get back down.
But I am healthy. And I balance those issues.
And I'm rambeling......
Thank you sleeve for giving me the tool to loose the weight. Now I just have to control the snack and binge times to keep on my path.
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