Today I take control again.
I was so successful at loosing. Exceeding my original goal. Hard work at the gym and clean eating. Had plastics to loose extra skin. I didn't love parts of my body but felt healthy and accomplished and good. Size 6 or 8 jeans.
I work out 7 days a week. I find I feel lethargic if I skip a day. Some days I do 45 at gym and walk almost 2 miles at night.
But my eating got sloppy. Snacks. Sweets. Larger portions. Breads. I would go up a couple lbs...tighten up and loose them again. It blows my mind how quickly I can gain. How I can eat what an average person eats work out and gain....I will never have a complete healthy relationship with food ..it will always be a tug of war.
Today I am 10 lbs higher than my lowest weight. I know why...my eating. I feel like crap about myself Depressed. I refuse to let this beat me.
So today I a taking control. Going back to basics. A few days of liquid to get my mind back in check. Prove I have the self control and power over food.
I will drop back my 10 lbs and keep those off. Sure maybe a bit is muscle due to all the gym time...but I know not 10 lbs.
Today is my do over day.
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