Originally Posted by
jessy81
Thanx u guys :-) i'm so happy 2 b a part of such a super supportive group, i really appreciate all ur support & input here with me :-) as 4 the op i'm thinking that i hopefully won't b in agony 4ever, plus i'm missing out on a lot of things in my life & my marriage, also i can't spend my whole life starving on low cal diets 2 b thin (then get bored & get fat yet again!) or just let go & eat like a pig & ultimately look like one :-( i'm only 29, i haven't felt beautiful or wanted or happy in about 10 years, i'm also sick & tired of so many things:
1-how my knees &legs ache from a flight of stairs.
2-wearing black 24/7 hoping 2 look decent in anything
3-hating lingerie&sex
4-being bitter&jealous of anyone thin&beautiful
5-how ppl look at me at parties when i eat anything
6-how ppl automatically comment on my weight&give me advice without me even asking
7-crying at how horrible i look&feel
8-sweating&huffing at the slightest effort
9-looking ugly in anything i wear
10-having no control whatsoever over food. It's like i'm on crack!
11-being scared of getting sick cuz of being so fat
12-knowing that i'm ugly cuz i'm fat.
Being fat is killing me inside out.
I need this op.
I just hope that it'll go as smoothly as possible.
Thanx again everybody:-)
i'm hoping 2 join ur loser bench soon!:-)
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