7 months in back on track

[Scubagecko]

Hello All,

It's been a while since I've posted here. Today marks 7 months in and I'm down 87lbs and only 40lbs from my target.

It hasn't been an easy road though. At the end of May I had a birthday and my wife in recognition of my working so hard got me an ice cream cake to celebrate. Well I enjoyed a piece that night and again the next night. Then a week later my wife had her birthday and I thought it would be nice to give her an ice cream cake. This led to a month where my previous steel will turned into aluminum foil. I found myself buying snacks and carbs throughout the month of June. This led me to actually gain a few pounds. Then I took a hard look at what I was doing and how far I had come.

The other thing in my head is that we are our own worst critics. I find myself looking at my reflection in the mirror and only seeing how much farther I have to go. Then I get angry at myself for letting me get this big in the first place, angry at myself for not working harder and for getting off track when I've lost the most weight I have ever lost in my life. Doh, the vicious cycle in my head.

It is easy to say things like look at how far you've come. How much better you feel and telling yourself "You can do it!" but when you are are down on yourself there is no other way to hear it but with a bitter tone.

But I decided I could let this beat me or I will buckle down make this work and get back to basics. No more snacks, no more carbs, get my daily exercise, get my daily water intake, get my daily protein intake. And, it is working.

I've lost the weight I gained and a few more pounds as well. I don't know if I will hit my target by the end of this year but it won't be because I gave up. I'll post some photos this weekend.

Take care and good luck to all of you out there that struggle and know that I believe in you even if you don't.

[mama2five]

good for u - coming back and coming clean -
onward sir

[browncurlygrl]

While I am not glad that you have struggled, I am thankful for your honestly. You can do this!!!!!! We all can do this!!!!!!!!!!!!

[eezgoat]

well said

[Rox]

I'm sorry that your birthday "opened the floodgates" to carbs - but we all have food issues. As we all have been taught, the sleeve is a tool. It makes your stomach smaller, it doesn't address the urges that got us all here in the first place. It is a great reminder of that when I read posts like yours. Thank you for not being perfect, but then forcing yourself to turn it around. Way to Go!!!

[Survivor]

I am so glad for you. That you saw what you were doing and put a stop to it. I for one am really proud of you. Keep up the good work!!

[LoraG]

I'm glad that you're back on track! Nobody's perfect and certainly not every day....glad you were honest enough with yourself to come back around before things got out of hand.

Maybe next celebration could be an exciting outdoor adventure (rock climbing, zip lining, kayaking, deep sea fishing, scuba diving [you like that]) or maybe because your birthdays are so close together you could do a couples massage.

Wishing you much luck and success,
Lora

[dawnbarnard]

Get 'er done!!!! Back on track and moving forward!!!!!

[Scubagecko]

Thanks everyone for the kind words or encouragement and advice. Keeping the focus. Here are a couple of pics for youimage.jpegphoto.JPG

[Gredonna]

The reality is ice cream cake is out there in the world and it tasts so darn good. The best thing you did was be honest with yourself and change direction. I did the same thing a few weeks ago with special K bars. They were in the house and I found myself eating one a day. They were soo good it was like a drug addict getting high. I was VERY aware of what I was doing and it took some sole searching to change direction. I found the more sweets I ate the more I wanted. Your have everything to celebrate - don't be so hard on yourself. Think of what life would be like today if you had never had surgery. Keep up the great work

[christine53]

keep looking at those pictures