Hello. I was sleeved on May 21, 2012. I went from 206 down to 143, but have hovered around 148 since November. My goal was 130. I am 5'3. Anyway, I guess it was about November, I started to not follow the program 100%. I thought "I so have this down. Look at how much weight I've lost and I'm eating whatever I want, and drinking whatever I want, etc., etc." I never really "exercised. I have a 5 year old and we were always on the go, so that helped, but exercise? Oh no way. So, I thought how lucky am I?! I must be so special? Well, I am scared to death and I am freaking angry as hell. I'm writing this down not for a kick in the pants or a high-five, but to release some very pent-up frustration and anger that I have no where else to let loose. Before my surgery, I loved beer, food, eating at night. After surgery, I could barely eat anything, but I noticed that a few months after my surgery I was feeling hunger pains. I thought we were never to have those again? Also, at night, instead of eating crap, I was taking "protein" to bed with me because I wasn't eating enough during the day. So that was great, right? Wrong. Now, I just take whatever and some nights I can eat and eat and eat. I try to watch when I'm taking in liquids, but that doesn't always work. I drink beer, and went back to drinking beer after a few months. While it makes me wonder because of what I've read, there has never been any SOLID proof that drinking carbonated beverages will stretch your stomach. You know what stretches your stomach? FOOD! And being able to eat lots of it. Last night in bed, I had a can of some crappy kids pasta dish (like spag & meatballs), then I had a mini bagel with 1/3 less fat cream cheese, and THEN, I had 5 multi-grain crackers with 75% fat-free cheddar cheese. When I decided to have this surgery, it was because I was informed and have it in writing that only 10% of people gain all their weight back. We paid for this out of pocket. We will be paying on this for years and years and years. I am SO incredibly angry that I was not educated enough on having an out-of-control eating habit prior to getting the sleeve. I was told "this is a tool," "not a fix." I understand that, but surely if you can only get but so much food in your stomach, how on earth are you going to overeat, and eat constantly just to eat? Well, this chick does and it makes me disgusted that we paid 14k for this surgery and I am probably only going to gain it all back anyway. My advice to ANYONE who has an eating disorder is to think hard and long about getting this surgery. If you're able, get over your eating issue first and THEN have the surgery. I know someone who had some type of band done about 10 years ago, and she has gained all her weight back and her stomach holds like 4-5 cups of food. So, I know full well that this will end up being a waste of money and time, and that makes me very sad.
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