On July 3rd, it will be three months since I’ve had surgery. My first appointment to my doctors was three weeks after surgery. I lost 30 pounds since April 18th, when I started my liquid diet. I was doing great. But then two weeks before my 2 months appointment, my weight seemed to plateau and then increase. I am a daily weighter. It’s my addiction for now. But during these two weeks, I noticed that my left leg swelled up a bit. I watched what I was eating and making sure I wasn’t eating any salt. By the time I had to go to the doctor, I was only down 6 pounds. When I was told that, I blatantly said out loud, mother effer. Oh and they heard me. Then the doctor saw me. He said I should have lost at least 20 pounds, if not more, during this time. I showed him my leg. Thinking that since he IS a doctor, he might know what’s wrong but instead, told me to see my primary doctor. I did call them but they are on vacation. My luck. Anyways, I know losing only 6 pounds in my fault and I’m not blaming anyone. I know I need to exercise more. In my mind, I can do it but my body says, I don’t think so. I do what I can, even if it’s a little. Just to let you know why I cant exercise that much is because I have advanced arthritis in my right knee along with muscle spasms in my lower back. So he said to exercise and I do more than what I usually do. So today, a week later after seeing him, I’m laying in bed. The reason, I hurt my back AGAIN!! I do what the doctor says and I get hurt. I’ve been out of work for the past week. It really does suck. My addiction is still there though. After I take care of my morning things, I weigh myself. I’m down around 8 pounds. This does not make sense. Because I’m lying in bed, I haven’t exercised. I’ve been drinking water and having lunch and dinner. I’m not even hungry anymore and have to remind myself to eat. Even the swelling in my leg has gone down. I guess lying in bed made the swelling go down. I don’t know. I do have a question in all this mess. Does anyone else have arthritis or muscle spasms or a weak back that they can do “regular” exercises? Even walking makes my back go weaker and I have to sit down before taking another step. I am stuck in a ditch. I’m damned if I do and damned if I don’t.
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