I'm really not one to post my frustrations or anything negative. I really try to be positive and encouraging to everyone. Maybe this is why I feel so guilty when people praise me and ask what my menus look like because they admire my success. The truth is, in my opinion, I don't eat very well. I'm sure I'm eating far too many carbs and no where near enough protein. I have days where I am super focused and do well... but the truth is those days are far too few. I wouldn't say I'm slipping into old habits, because I really love and enjoy "good-for-you" healthy foods. Unfortunately they don't all love me so much these days. I am envious of all you sleevers who can eat just about anything without a problem. Proteins seem to test my new stomach. They don't sit well a lot of the time. I have to practically have them in soup form for them not to irritate me. I fully plan on bringing it up at my 6 month check-up next month. I mentioned it to the nurse that leads the support group and she agreed I should be sure to mention the fact that I throw up almost everyday (usually only once). This happens when I try things that I know might bother me. There are certain foods that I can almost guarantee won't agree, but every now and then I give them a try. Eggs are so hit and miss (more miss than hit unfortunately) chicken breast is evil most days, I don't like turkey, protein shakes make me gag. I totally overdosed on shrimp in the first few months and now it makes me queasy. I just feel bad when people look to me for food advice because I don't feel like I have it all together in that area. Trust me, if those lean, healthy, high in protein foods would stay put... I'd eat them all day long! It's not to say I'm doing things all wrong, I exercise a lot, I still only eat between 800-1100 calories a day. And yes my weight loss is PHENOMENAL and I understand why others might look to me for tips... I just don't feel like I'm in a position to give them. I know what I should be doing, I just can't right now... but I still try everyday, hence the daily vomiting. I just don't want anyone to feel bad if I'm not sharing my secrets to great weight-loss... cause the secret is I am struggling with eating still. I in no way want this to discourage any prospective sleevers, my situation is pretty uncommon. And the fact is I DON'T CARE! If this was the way it was for the rest of my life, so be it... I still think it's worth it and I am happy. Food doesn't have to be the center of my universe, I will figure it out. I just needed to be honest. This has been bothering me for a while and I felt it only right to come clean with you all. Thanks for listening
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