Confession time...

[Mbenson5]

Good morning! I need to put this out there because I don't want to go back to hiding my eating. I had a bad eating weekend. ESP yesterday when I made pumpkin bread and chicken fettuccini. Fall is going to be hard for me because I LOVE to bake this time of year. I only had one piece but it was a good sized piece. I also grazed all day and had popcorn (low fat microwave) and a root beer which I haven't had since my surgery. I shouldn't have bought the dumb stuff and let my son get it while we were shopping. Thankfully the kids and their friends drank all but that last one! I admit, I have been on this ¥#€£ stall for a month and just felt like WTH. I'm worried my mind will convince me to stay there and I will fall down the black hole again. The only "good" thing is with all that, I still only consumed 1240 calories which would have been 3x that before my surgery. I forgot to take my thyroid meds this weekend too so that doesn't help. Don't know whether to ask for a kick or support but there you have it. Thanks for helping me to be accountable. To quote Scarlet, Tomorrow is another day, right???

[Munchkin]

Yes, I have had weekends like that. Pick yourself up and start fresh. I find that eating and exercise are only part of the journey. THere is a lot of emotion to deal with as well.

[Trustin Sleever]

I'm sorry you had a rough weekend. As a compulsive overeater, I also struggle with binges; but like you, a binge NOW is only a small fraction of what it used to be. And that's WONDERFUL.
It helps me to think about how it will feel, to make a public admission like this, right when I'm about to buy the foods in the grocery store, or right when I am contemplating eating them (my weakest point).
I also find it immensely helpful to think about how I have felt in the past when I have struggled with a food choice. Typically, I feel so disappointed in myself after I make a poor choice- I have felt that shame countless times. I have less experience with the feeling of omnipotence I get when I make it through a really tough food challenge and don't give in. Now THAT is a powerful feeling!
Best wishes.

[Busybee]

I understand how you feel about baking and poor food choices. I have found that it helps if I can remake what would have been a bad recipe into a healthier option. I have started experimenting with low fat and sugar free baking. I found a recipe on yummly.com for lowfat low sugar pumpkin bread. I even went further where it called for 3/4 cup brown sugar I substituted splenda brown sugar blend. With the help of this recipe I trimmed the calories in a slice of pumpkin bread to 125. 1 gram of fat and only 3 grams of sugar. The sugar was from the raisins I added that were not called for but really perked things up a bit. Wishing you luck with controlling your eating. Get back on the wagon and make this week count!

[niamh]

Well done you for sharing! There should be no shame in telling us - and of course you get our support. This stuff is really tough!

I think I'm hoping that in the future, if I have a day like you describe (which as you say in total cals is not too bad) I just compensate by having a controlled day the next day. That's what normal weight people do.

Also, though, sounds like you had very little protein. I wonder if in future, you only allow yourself a treat after you've made sure you get your protein in. That would mean you'd be less likely to graze (because you'd feel fuller), and have less of the other foods because there'd be less space for them.

[regiefortheworld]

its not the falling that hurts..its the not getting back up...you are stronger than you think. get back up and get back at it. YOU run this show!!!

[pack89]

Unfortunately, we all have bad days. It's what you do next that's important. Get back on the protein train, and you'll be fine. Here's my OPINION, take it or leave it...I will no longer look at food as bad or forbidden. I am no better than Adam and Eve with the apple. The more you tell me I can't have it, the more I want it. So instead, if there is something I am just dying for, I'll have it. A couple of bites, a very small portion, of whatever it may be. I eat it very slowly and savor every little morsel. Then it's out of my system, and I move on. I go back to my protein, protein, protein. This way, that food doesn't sit there and call my name, I don't obsess about it. I always count it in my calories for the day, adjust the rest of my eating for the day, and I can move on. Example, Thursdays are date nights for me and my hubby. We go out for wings. So on Thursday, knowing that we'll go out, I'll have a protein shake for breakfast (as always) and one for lunch, no protein snacking in between. This does 2 things, makes sure I have a minimum of 60g protein for the day and keeps my carbs very low. Then when I eat my 2 wings, 1 steak fry, and celery I don't feel bad, still keeping my calories and carbs low.

If you are afraid that eating like this will totally derail your new food lifestyle, then by all means avoid doing it. If you think you can't ever stay away from it, like busybee said, try to adjust your recipes to make them more sleeve friendly. Most importantly a few bites, every now and then won't hurt you, as long as it doesn't become an every day thing. But like I said, this is just my opinion...

[tmclenn]

I admire you for having 1200 calories in the entire day, heck ONE of my binges before would be over 2000 calories! I like what Peggy has to say, we have to seperate ourselves from this good/bad relationship with food, have what you want in our sleeve sized portion, like normal people do! I look forward to 2 wings, one steak fry and a piece of celery as a meal, cause before it would have been an entire serving of natcho's by myself...uggg.

[bchevery]

has anyone mixed protein powder in there greek yogurt?

[mila]

Very brave and very accountable of you to post today. Much admiration from me!!

[shubair]

I agree so brave and u are fine. I recently had a 3 week stall and was feeling low and wanting tojust say forget it and eat!!! Funny thing is we cant really over eat like I used to or I would throw up. I want uto know I drank more fluids and it helped and after 3 weeks all of a sudden in 1 week 10 pounds gone!! amazing really amazing. U will be ok get back onto proteins and fluids again. One day of bad habits will not turn u into a monster again lolz. If u want something I agree eat a few bites cuz if u always deny yourself you will want it more and more.

[carolynodien]

Thank you for your post. There have been days along my journey I have felt the same as you do. I sometimes envy those who had surgery in the US and have the psychological help behind them. I had surgery in Mexico and don't really have a lot of money to get therapy. Everyone on here is MY support and therapy, and posts like this really help me! I have had panic over seeing my "hiding eating" habit show it's evil face...must be some sort of coping mechanism in me, but I don't like it at all. Being cognizant of it helps too.

[Mbenson5]

Your responses have truly been good for my soul.Today was much better - I ate good but still under my protein goal. Came home and walked an hour on the treadmill and did the usual exercises. All in all, much better. Thank you all doesn't truly express how grateful I am for your support. {Hugs to all!}

[ann grier]

I tried just once and I vomited!! So have not tried it again.

[Island Girl]

Melissa...you are human and it is just a weekend Its all good! You know what you need to do...

I also love to bake this time of year and have been trying high protein, gluten free recipes that I've found on the internet. A healtier way to fulfill my need to bake during cooler weather. Livestrong.com has some great home-made pumpkin protein bar recipes