Yea, I'm post-menopausal, but I've still been cranky. It's getting less and less as I'm eating more, but I used to be SO pleasant. I think there is something to be said about fat and happy. I'm still fat though. I'm just not very happy about having to control myself so much - track calories and protein, carbs and fat, take all the dang vitamins, don't forget the Miralax every freaking day so I don't get constipated! That's all not to mention having to really control myself so I don't graze all day long and/or eat something nasty and wicked like real ice cream!!! And exercise my hiney off! Even with all this discipline, I'm SOOOOOO disappointed that I'm not losing weight faster, so maybe that is carrying over into my mood. No wonder I'm cranky!
IF I had known I was only going to lose 1 or 2 (if I'm real lucky!) pounds a week, I don't know if I'd have signed up for all of this! I guess it's a good thing I didn't know then what I know now or I wouldn't be in debt for a self pay, risky surgery! Oh geez! Another reason to be cranky.
Oh, and I haven't had a drop of alcohol in like over 2.5 months! That's because I promised myself I would not until 12 whole weeks have passed. So about 3 more weeks to go and I may tie one on...sounds like I need it, doesn't it? But, it's just not near as much fun on the rare occassion when I do go out with friends, watch them eat and drink, while I have a few bites and can't even wash it down with water. More than anything, I HATE not being able to eat and drink at the same time!!!
When people say they "LOVE" their sleeves, I wonder why. They must not like to eat as much as I do. Or eat and drink @ the same time! Or like to drink carbonated beverages!
And, I know it is not nice of me, but it irks me to pieces when people were sleeved, even though they weighed less than my goal weight to begin with and now after about 6-8 weeks, they are in the "normal" BMI range. (It wasn't a revision either.) Well, good for them, but ***I*** don't really want to hear about it!!! It just seems SO unfair, and I just hate unfairness. Yes, I'm jealous - OK, I admitted it.
Oh, and did I mention I go to group sessions every week, and although I will admit they are motivating and will be good for me in the long run, they are inconvenient and there are other reasons I don't look forward to them that I can't go into on a public forum.
That's all I can think of off the top of my head...I'm crawling down off my soapbox now....feeling a bit better to vent!
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